i wish you'll say something. positive or negative, afirmative or not; at least i'll know how you feel. if you conceal everything, i'll never get aquainted with you and we can never belong to each other. its getting harder and harder to keep this inside everytime i see you. i just wanna scream sometimes. but yet. i plaster a phony smile on my face and trudge on past you.
wednesday. feeling awfully sleepy today. apparantly florence was feeling the same way too. for the first time, we slacked during lessons. we even went to the toilet just to escape a few minutes of lesson. oh, and we probably irritated our new physics trainee teacher Mr. Del. you see, florence and i were sitting with our backs facing the window. it was really breezy. suddenly the curtains just flew up and brushed our shoulders. it was really scary,ok?! it felt like someone was wrapping his arms around us to strangle our necks. so.... we sorta shrieked very loudly. wahaha. mr del freaked out. probably thought that we were abducted by aliens or something. then just when we were settling down something very funny happened. hint:mr fantastic. we laughed through the rest of the lesson. mr del's pudgy cheeks practically flushed with impatience.
somehow, both of us managed to get through the rest of the day, had lunch then dutifully went for hw time. we only managed to get through half of the chinese paper then florence fell asleep. i did a bit more work but sleep was beckoning to me. so i uhhh..kind of slept too. haha. now we know how all the slackers in our class spend their days,huh?
then aft hw time although i was freaking tired, i had to go for tuition. i absolutely hate it. no teaching, anything. just plain practise. my brain hurts.
i reallyreally wanna shoot. i wonder why air rifle was called off for this month. my first shot is gonna be on the wall.
these days im feeling even more lonely than ever. florence asked me what is the most important characteristic of a guy. it is definitely empathy..
