sometimes goodbye though it hurts in the heart is the only way for destiny. sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way out. so say goodbye but don't you cry; because true love never dies.
hey xx, i really got a shock when i found out. so i decided to give you a call. i know you're hurting now. but i wanna let you know that i will always be there for you. that's what true friends are for. we'll stick through thick and thin. i shared my tears with you as you cried over the telephone. it really broke my heart how you said that nothing happened when i asked you about it. that was when i knew something was wrong and that you were trying to escape from reality. i've been through this twice already. everyday i'm living in fear, wondering whether i will have to go through a third time. all this time,even when i appeared to be happy,when i smiled and laughed everytime i was with you, did you see fear in my eyes? i have never told anyone about this. it really sucks to live my live this way. that's why sometimes i'm so quiet,just staring into space, fearing that it would happen. even when all seemed right i would still feel fear creeping up on me.did you know that? that is one of my biggest secrets that i have never told anyone. i have been crying ever since we hung up on the phone. trust me, i understand what you are going through. whenever you close your eyes, the memories just keep coming back to you and you can't stop the tears. then you cry.silently. but inside your heart you are screaming in agony. you cry so hard that you feel like your whole heart is being compressed. and then comes regret. i have always said that regret is the worst feeling that anyone could possibly experience. you just wish you could turn back the clock but yet you are so powerless. i have been through all of this. every night, the tears just fall and you sob into your pillow. you hate yourself and wish with all your heart that this did not happen.
Dear xx, it is time to move on. believe me, it is ok to be sad and cry, but don't dwell on it. forgive yourself. you were never at fault. this is all just a sick twist of fate. you can do nothing to prevent it. instead of keeping the tragedy in mind, just leave it all behind. think about all the happy times that not even a billion dollars can buy. that happiness will last a lifetime.
heaven is a place where anything will never experience pain or sadness again. be happy in this fact. and as i said over the phone, x is already very lucky to have come to this loving and warm home. think about it. didn't you give x all of your love and care? that was the maximum you could do. i'm sure that if x could choose between a lifetime at that place and a few happy months at your house, x would have chosen your home. you have brought so much joy into x's life. now you should look back at the memories fondly. just remember; time heals. pretty soon you will come to terms with it. now it may seem that you are trapped in a dark tunnel with no way out. but with time; you will slowly begin to see a single ray of light; hope. there is a way out of this sadness.. all it takes is a little time.
remember: i will always be there if you need a shoulder to cry on. i promise. that's what friends are for...
