friday night. possibly my favourite time of the week. its been a trying one,too. physics test and chinese test. i have so much on my mind right now, but i'll try to put it all down in words yea?
the first thing i really wanna get off my chest. i absolutely loathe my air rifle coach. today was supposedly florence and mines' last air rifle session. and somehow, before the session, i kept playing with these words in my mind. 'and she just had to make the last session the worst.' and it came true. you see, we were sitting down there waiting for our turn. we had to leave by 4 as we had something up. however,due to a late dismissal, we had no choice but to sign up for detail 2. so..we waited and waited and waited. coach told us to follow the sec 1's schedule. the sec 4s and 3s were taking an extremely long time to complete their rounds. so at 3 55,florence and i had to leave. we didn't want to tell coach, we just wanted to walk out and rub our names off the board. but in the end we decided to tell her. and guess what? she scolded us until......... everyone was looking at us. she was like accusing us of stupid little things. she complained that we were reading (too intellectual for you,hag?) and that florence was listening to the radio. (er,hello.underground.no tranmission.so--no radio.dummy) and we even said that we would replace back this session on tuesday or monday. but right now i'm so pissed that i never want to see her again. ever.so goodbye and good riddance you scummy freak.
there.that felt really good.
mid-year exams are just round the corner. and i promise,i really wanna do well, like top 10 in class,behind the scholars. but somehow there's just no time to study.seriously. its not an excuse. we have been getting truckloads of homework. my teammate did a good job of pointing that out during a skit we did for english. that plus 3 tuition's work. its no joke.
and probably the matter which weighs most in my heart; 4I, my class. how many teachers and students have we reduced to tears? countless. such that every friday during contact time its like a booster motivational session. everyone comes up and gives such nice wake-up calls. but i think that that's never going to work because many people are simply happy with where they're at. they have no specific goals in life, and thus they have no driving force. its sad to say this,but we(yep the whole class) have proven to be nearly impossible to wake up from our deep slumber. maybe what it takes is for something really really bad to happen before all of us are fully awake. a good teacher is currently threatening to put us back with some other teacher under which our class's grades would fall. all this frustration has been built up ever since the beginning of this year. i pity our form teacher. its the first time that she's placed in charge of a class, and a graduating one at that. imagine how much stress she is under. there's only so much that we can do to help the class. as for the rest,well,you'll just have to learn the hard way.
and lastly, the sleeping beauty in chinese class. i would never say this to your face, because you'll go all emo on me. but you are beyond help. honestly,who are you to argue and throw tantrums on our chinese teacher? can't you have some empathy? all you do is sleep. even when other teachers try to wake you up,you'll just ignore them. get out of your whimsical fairy tale world where you're a pathetic victim, waiting for someone to pull you up from the pit that you'll fallen into, by your own choice. you're rude to trainers,teachers,students, even friends. and all you do is go all emo and yell,'how can you help me if you don't know my problems?!' oh puh-lease. you've got a lot of growing up to do. you're not the only one in the world with problems,m'boy. hey,i've got issues too. but the difference between you and other people is that they deal with it,get over it and MOVE ALONG. what about you? you're still waiting for your problems to be solved. i say,keep on waiting.that'll never happen. you act like you have got realllly big problems. but people around you are suffering much more. some people are worrying where their next meal's gonna come from.other's are wondering if they'll be alive tomorrow. you're one of the most narrow-minded and shallow person i've ever met. you're as shallow as a swimming pool for ants. and i just know that if you do not attempt to change,you'll live to regret it, starting with your O' level cert. we'll see, shan't we?
well.i'm done.such an angst filled entry. but that's what teenagers are all about huh? angst.
