And this is the price that you pay For being smart in a stupid way You stand there staring while your lover walks away Being smart, in a stupid way.
tomorrow is sorta the last day of mid-years. at least, for me.
i had a four hour tuition today. again. i think throughout the course of this mid-year exam, i went at least 10 times. exhausting,but fufilling.
happy birthday to mingyue! i didn't know till today.heh.
now, i have a friend.lets call her xx. and for some shallow reason, many people in school ostracise her. and by many, i mean a three digit number easily. why? just because of a disagreement between her and some of the more popular kids in school. and lets face it. this world can be rather blind. we follow the crowd and go with the flow. regardless of whether those kids are right or wrong. that's life. so everyone shuns her. but honestly, lets look at this from a different perspective. how can you judge a person based on how they treat their enemy? think about it. if i were to judge you from how you treat someone you hate, then you would too be a "horrible" person. but you're not. and xx is not too. if you think that she's horrible, then go drown yourself. seriously.you are so narrow-minded and you're as shallow as a swimming pool for ants. there is good in everyone. and personally, i can't stand it when injustice wins just because of its sheer numbers. just because there are many of those kids, so they are right. and the right person is wrong. that stinks. however,sometimes life is like that. and we gotta make a stand. right or wrong. its better to 'lose' but be morally upright than to 'win' but be totally wrong. if you all knew what a great friend xx is, you all would hang your heads in shame.
and sometimes, those people who practically worship those popular kids treat us,xx's friends badly too. its pretty obvious. you know what? damn you to hell and back again. then damn you again. i have been tolerating such nonsensical crap ever since goodness knows when. and i'm sick of it. the effing slut clab and whatnot. piss off, you lot. and what's most disapointing is, people whom i used to be on talking terms with suddenly turn their back on me. i'm really mad at that. not for the loss of the friendship, because i would honestly be better off without such friends. but i'm mad that you lack so much common sense. alright,go to the 'dark' side. they have cookies. but you know what? they don't give a damn about you. you are just another servant,minion if you will and they are just making use of you to add on to their already large numbers. for pete's sake,shake yourself out of it. you're not 'accepted' as you would like to believe. you're just plain deluded. i'm hoping that when you all grow up to be adults,you'll look back and regret that you did not stand up for what's right. mind you,i wrote this entry without a bias mindset.that's what's happening every single day.
and there are the people who dislike me because i quit their cca. i have former best friends acting like they don't know me at all. it hurts,i have to admit. but from today, i'll never let that bother me. and i feel sorry for your new friends. they're don't know what they're in for. i do everything for a reason. why did i quit that cca? because it sucks. on the outside,it might look so professional.but inside, its all in shambles. all the bitching and backstabbing. its so amazing that i just feel like laughing. THAT'S why i quit. face the facts. its not that i did not have any interest in it. but it just sucks to the core.
sometimes i feel too much. but from now on,i shan't care. there are more beautiful things in life to care about. and i have more important things to worry about. goodbye to my old life. hail the new,sensible life where i don't give a sh*t about obnoxious people.
life is a bitch because if it were a slut, it would be easy.
