Scene Queen.Hate me if it feels good.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Selfishness and kiasu-ism
is not in my league.
but it is in YOURS.
you low class little mentally challenged brat.
i hate rude people.

being rude to others is a symbol
of your level of intelligence.
obviously there are better ways
to deal with others when you're not
exactly feeling perkily upbeat.that is,
in a good mood.
next time when you're venturing out in
the working world, and your boss annoys you,
are you gonna snap at him?
yell at him? tell him that you do
not need to depend on him for money?
that would be pretty dumb, wouldn't it?
you'll live on the streets man!

everyone is rude,
but it depends who you are rude to,
and how rude you are.
snapping at someone dear
or throwing a royal fit
just goes to show how poorly you
were brought up.
didn't your parents teach you otherwise?

why risk turning relationships sour
over something so superficial?
i was stunned for the whole day
when i heard about that huge little incident.
how uneducated can you get?

not admitting your flaws and trying
to cover them up but cracking
when exposed is stupid.
no one is all-knowing.
except God.
and you are certainly not God
or anything like Him.
worse or all,
you never change.
only God knows how much your
stubbornness has cost you.
I wish i could yell
in your ear
"I told you so I told you so...."
till you go partially deaf.

Vulgarities are for people
who have nothing better to retort back,
thus using a simple few letters
thrown together and given a bad meaning.
i could create a bad word too.
xyz is a bad word.and it means
extremely stupid.
you see what i mean?
using vulgarities show that
you have nothing between your ears.

maybe i'm being a unfair here,
because i love to clam up myself and
all my emotions.
i want you to understand
that i've perfectly fine with open,
expressive people.
i respect them for their guts.
but there's a difference with
being open and being
absurdly straightforward.
its ridiculous, you cow.

giving lame, weak excuses
to cover up your
shockingly selfish nature, huh.
well i'm not fooled.
good try though.
you're so typical that its sad.

you should read my book
of deepest thoughts right now.
its so angry, if you get what i mean.
you got me so pissed
that i just had to blog.
its a wicked thing, accumulation.
just builds up and
you gotta risk everything at one go.
if i were an artist,
what a dark, bleak painting i would
produce now!
if i were a musician,
what a deafening,stormy piece of
music i would play now!
but i'm neither of this.
since writing's what i do best,
i do it now.
but seriously,
words can't express(i love mockery)
how fed-up i am right now.
i have accomodated you...

*(a very long phone conversation later...)*

right.
so i've just called delvina
to speak to her about
this whole thing.
she's such an angel.
the reason why i did
that even though she's not in anyway
involved in the whole thing
was due to the fact that i must
have been at my angriest
in my whole entire life.
yes, this is the severity of this whole thing.
but rage leads to sin,
and sin leads you too...
away from God.
50% of my anger has
dissipated, but the rest is still
swimming around.
and i suppose i will always get
my feathers ruffled thinking about
this whole thing.
but anyway, forgive and forget.
its easier to forgive than forget though.
humans are naturally petty in nature,
and we tend to hold on
to displeasing issues.

i'm sorry at blowing this whole
thing up, albeit not out of proportion,
because, one again, i must impress
upon you that i have never felt
so upset in my entire life.
so this was exactly how it was,
without a pinch of salt in it.
i still wobder how i managed to mask
my emotions through it all.
i told you, i'm a pro at it.

my dear readers,i sincerely apologize if at any
part in this entry,
you felt that YOU were the one i was
attacking so savagely.
NO, you're not.
its someone that we all don't really know.
but then again, if you felt convicted,
that is, you were reading it and went
in your brain (is she talking about me?!),
then maybe you are guilty
of being like that.
and its always a joy to change for
the better, so i encourage you
to think about changing.
i know of some people in this
world who say stuff like:
"No one can change me. Accept
me for who i am."
Even i was once guilty of that.
I'm no angel, and this post
was NOT to make you all
feel like devils.NO.
So thank you
for reading to the end of this post,
and please think about what i've said.
what do the people around you
REALLY think of you?
and always remember
to say SORRY.
some people never say sorry.
but seriously, will the sky fall down if you say sorry,
will you go bankrupt if you say sorry?
NO.
in fact, your life will noticably light up.

bye all,
xoxoxo.

5:27 PM