ohoh. this post was supposed to be written in my diary, but you know how writing takes forever?yea. so i'll blog. gosh.my nails are so long that i can't type properly. manicure!!! i want i want.
anyways this will be a random post. yea. today was racial harmony day for my school. i only remembered yesterday so i was turning the whole house upside down looking for something ethnic but.. you know how the story goes.
i wrote this nice short story, i'll put it up and OH. my previous story. eh hehheh. i was never much good at keeping promises.
i think that feet with high insteps are simply beautiful. instep-- you know, the part of your feet that curves up? yea. i like the ones that are high. they look so classy. and they'll look fabulous in high heels.
today!.. i had school, then chem, prac. i surprised myself by breaking the very boundaries of stupidity today. i was mixing chemicals together when i saw smoke rising up. so i went: Hmm..wonder if its hot? then i touched the side of the test tube. nope.not hot. then i went really close.. i wanted to sniff it. and i did. a long,long, loong drag. i nearly doubled over from the stench. PURE, CONCENTRATED CHLORINE. it was probably 100mol/dm cube. you get the idea. i felt like puking. then i sat on the bench for a couple of seconds, wondering whether i might die or something.
oh, and during tuition (which i just returned from) i suddenly started sneezing and suddenly! had a flu. must be the aftermath of chlorine-sniffing.
today, florence asked me why i did not clap for HIM. and i replied: Because i like him a lot, but hate the association even more.
then after i said that my brain went into overdrive, taking me on the whole roller coaster ride of emotions. the result was a veryvery weary,confused and hollow-feeling me. whenever i'm feeling really down, i tell people i'm not feeling well, so that they will not ask me why i'm so sad and i will not have to answer that awkward question. my brain certainly works in complex ways the simple human mind cannot comprehend.haha.
but whywhywhy?! must you always resurface from a corner of my mind when i'm pathetically trying to forget you? maybe even to hate you? but then again, love is an absence of hate, and hate is merely an absense of love. so, in a twisted sort of way, love and hate are relatives. but still, i'm trying my best to hate you. because i know that this whole..fiasco, if you will, will only serve to bring nothing but pain into my life. and i shut out painful things from my life.
if you had a choice: Being with someone you're contented with or someone you're happy with, which would you choose? i would choose happiness. even though the one i'm contented with will give me security and everlasting..well.. contentment, i'll choose the one who makes me happy, even if its just for a few days.
and that marks the end of a very confusing post. sometimes i think that my blog is a rubbish dump. i unload all my random stuff here.
