Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Tomorrow is english,O levels.
The first two papers were fun!
E maths and SS.
I will dearly miss SS.
SEQS--Memorising some details
and explaining has become 2nd nature
to me thanks to the very fab
Ms Patsy Neo.
Goodness gracious, I daren't imagine
what my SS grades would be like
if she hadn't taught my class.
I'll always remember her.
So.
I always blog right before an english paper.
Its a habit.
It beats studying because once
I put pen to paper, or rather,
fingers to keyboard,
I feel an incredible surge of inspiration.
Today I shall blog about.
Myself.
MYSELF.
MYSELF.No actually I'm just kidding.
I'm not that self-centred, REALLY.
I suh-wear.
I love Rainbow more than I love myself.
And that says a lot.
Actually, I want to ask you guys some
thought-provoking questions.
And of course, I'll naturally add in some
comments. ;)
Whenever I tell people about my
decision to go to a poly,
even though I'm eligible for JC
in my prelims,
I get two responses.
1) The kind, encouraging souls who tell me
that the poly is a great way to pursue
my interest.
2) The kfhevkegb types who sternly lecture
me.They feel that because I'm young,
I'm not taking my future into consideration.
And they feel that I MUST get into a university
and that going into a poly would hinder that.
HELLO??!!!
Is it my life or yours?
If my parents can accept it and are
in fact very supportive of my choices,
then why shouldn't you be?
I know, caring for my future, I will suffer,
YADDA YADDA.
Caring for a person is one thing,
but trying to take their life into
your own hands is another.
TOTALLY.DIFFERENT.THING.
( I know I sound angry.
I am, duh. )
Don't start calling me a selfish, ungrateful,
immature brat.
I'm refering to the forceful kind.
Not the kind, advicing kind.
That I can tolerate.
I think that this world is moulding us all into
very frightfully similar models.
And this world is twisting lives
into this warped, sad thing.
Many of my friends would know this.
I HATE stereotypicality.
Don't need to go to
www.dictionary.com .
(which btw is one of my fav sites)
It means, well, the fixed, and seemingly
normal way.
Let me show you how the world is
psychoing people.
Question: Why do you want to go to a university?
19 out of 20 people would say
because they want to get that
degree and get a good job, and earn more.
Isn't it scary?
Wouldn't education be a torture,
not something fun anymore?
It is very rare to find someone who
wants to go to the university
because he truly wants to learn more.
So that's why I want to do what I'm interested
in, Mass Communications, at a poly.
Because unlike other people
who are able to endure 2 more years of
studying at a JC, I can't.
I just woke up one day and told myself
that I will not force myself anymore in life
to do what I do not want to do.
Because that's not being true
to your heart.
I'm not keen to go to a JC,
unless I have no choice,
so I'm going to a poly.
Likewise, people who want to go
to a JC should study hard and go to a JC,
not a poly.
If they truly want to learn, that is.
Don't do what you don't want to.Now, I've covered the issue of education.
Lets move on to..lives.
Question: When you think of your future,
What do you see?
Again, a large percentage would say:
I'll be married, and have children,
and live happily ever after.
That's what some people want.
I understand.
But that's not what I want.
And many people are trying to
mould my live into that mundane
live mentioned above.
Now, that I don't understand.
WHY do some people (mostly adults) :
1) Think that everyone in this world has to get married?
2) Think that by getting married people will be happier?
( Which is sort of true, but think about this:
As marriage figures increase, so would divorce figures. )
3) Think that ALL women have to procreate?
4) Think that ALL couples should have children,
lest their life be "incomplete"?
WHYWHYWHY?
I'm telling you, it has something
to do with this world.
It is a scary world.
I'm very career-minded.
Some people are too.
I don't want anything to stand
in the way of my career.
And I think that having children
will affect my career.
My ideal career is different from
other people's.
Many people (esp. adults)
scorn the idea of my career.
I didn't want to say this,
but my ideal career is
lingering near the entertainment
industry ok?
Many people go:
Please lah girl, don't dream of such things.
You think very fun issit? No good one lah.
Ok, if it is true that careers
in the entertainment industry
are bad, then all entertainers should
just QUIT.
And we'll see who's laughing when
you switch on the TV and see nothing but static.
AHHHH!!
DON'T BE SO OLD-FASHIONED CAN?!
I want to be true to my heart.
And do what I want to do.
So, final question before I close:
Is your future what you REALLY want
or are you just conforming to society??
Clara.
1:33 PM
