Spend all your time waiting for that second chance for a break that would make it okay there's always one reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day...
man, i just love that song.. anyway, lotsa things happened lately.. 2dae was teacher's day but i did not get anythg for any teacher.. i have been practising really hard for dance. oh, and the dance was today. it was fun..but the make up was terrible.. shan't elaborate further..
seriously, what is the seniors' problem.. they are so bossy.. its always like: dancers get ready juniors stop talking juniors hurry up dancers be back at 10 and don't you dare to be late or we'll kick you out. dancers..dance properly! dancers your hair is so untidy! dancers go backstage NOW !! and the list goes on...
hate to say this but i just hope that next year comes quickly and they will be OUT of dance.. then it can be more fun rather than serious.
I need some distraction oh beautiful release memory seeps from my veins let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight i have handed up my streaming form.. sure get in tho.. cz i chose all the lousy thgs.. but it doesn't matter as long as i can cope.. right??
tmr im going to michelle's hse.. for the first rehearsal of our lit play.. and we will be dramatizing on this thursday.. three hours for costumes and work on the script AND practise..
well then we have reached the end of another long, dreary entry..night.
in the arms of the angel...
9:24 PM
Saturday, August 28, 2004
go on now go walk out the door just turn around now cos you're not welcome anymore. weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye did you think i'll crumble did you think i'll break down and die? oh no not i i will survive oh as long as i know how to love i know i will stay alive. i've got all my life to live i've got all my love to give and i'll survive i will survive.
dis song is like really popular for teacher's day this yr.. its either this, that thing you do or fame. cool tho i like those songs anyway.
2dae aft school we had to go to jessica's hse to do the anti-drug poster for cme. mz say it turned out quite well. thx to francine who spent an hour drawly the hooded thing. not to mention jess's crazy strokes and my wierd colour combos.
the funniest part was when we were mixing the colour for da midnight sky. (supposedly purplish-blue) a sickening belching sound. then the largest glob of blue paint hit the palette with a dull thud. the worst part was that there was so much blue that it was 'immune' to purple..
quite a freakily funny day again.. im gonna sleep now tho cz im waking up at 5 30.. hopefully to catch a glimpse of the sunrise..from the bbq pits.. the nicest sunrise i ever saw was clothed in yellow and pink..
remember--drugs kill night.. (p.s i didn't use to like sunrises untill last year..)
clairie
1:39 PM
Friday, August 27, 2004
I'm back !!!
haha.. i haven't bloged for abt a mth cz there was sumthg wrong with the archives but i'll leave that aside for a while..
An after war scene... people walking around, not knowing what to do living life with no purpose. they can't go on like this forever. A park, derelict, ruined. statues of angels, once white, now a rusty grey. with their arms reached out towards.. heaven.
i'm really muddled up now. the streaming form is here.. kinda sad.. i think that i should take seven subjects i really dunnoe. i'm just glad that my mum is letting me pick myself..
i'm just waiting for SI results to come out. dunnoe why i bother to watch anyway.. haha btw, Imelda also went for the bachelor in 8 days if i remembered correctly..
we have another dance coming up on tuesday. shld i smile-or frown?
in the arms of the angel fly away from here from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here claire
12:38 PM
Sunday, August 01, 2004
Can you hear them? They talk about us. Telling lies Well, that's no surprise. Spreading rumours Far from true
darn. francine and i didn't dance 2dae thx to some b*tchy backstabbers who deliberately kept us in the dark about the emergency dance meeting dis morning.
some other friends told us that we could still perform, but No. two irritants just had to make a big fuss out of it.. so, we were out.
francine and i didn't really care about performing.. it was the part of betraying that pissed us off.
we went cycling anyway and gorged ourselves with chips..
if i didn't have my pride, i would have quit dance already can't stand those bunch of liars.. its kind of sad tho.. all the dancers insult one another, kind of like a cat fight among them can't they understand that we dance in a group, not solo..
i give up.
look through the hearts of others; you will not like what you find. clara