Thursday, April 26, 2007
today actually..i had no lectures.
and since tutorials are off this week,
so i wasn't even supposed to go to school
today.but safra radio invited 2 djs,
1 from power 98, another from 88.3
to give cmm pupils a talk about radio.
so i decided to go, since radio is
the real reason why i joined cmm.
i'm glad i went for the talk.
it was super short actually..
lots of time was given to Q and As..
wanna know the pay of a DJ?
1.4 to 1.6k a month is the basic pay.
low right?
but for every commercial you record
you get $150.
and if you're good, you can get 3 or more
a day.
easy peasy, just a matter of reading a script.
and when you do roadshows,
you get paid $500 to $1200 (if you're really wanted)
PER HOUR.
woah!!
anyway, the very minimum a dj gets
(aka a lazy dj)
is 4k++.
and if you work hard..who knows how high
it might go?
definitely my passion.
and not just cos of the pay.
after the talk i went bowling with some
cmm peeps. they're all really nice!
down to earth...
you know how people are always saying
how snobbish we are?
and how badly we treat others?
it actually seems the OTHER way around.
when we(cmm people) walked past
some design people at the bowling place,
where they were horsing around.
they immediately stopped what they were
doing.one of them said:
hey, lets stop it. the cmm people are here.
they might think we're crazy.
having said that, they proceeded to cold-stare us.
how nice right?
hah..i saw my friend this morning.
h.h..
she's so cute man..
she had this thick cooking book in her hands.
study hard but play hard too =))
my friend asked for my blog address.
but i didn't give it.
haha.
its like my safe haven where i can say what i want.
i took the link off my friendster.
so...this blog is somewhat annoymous now.
so shhh..readers.. ;)
Only yours,
Clara
10:20 PM
Monday, April 23, 2007
aiyo...
go to my friendster to view the nice photos.
somehow i can't upload any..
we're all wearing yellow in all the new pics,
so look out for that =)
Lessons started today,
no tutorials this week though.
Our class was supposed to have
a session with Mr Daryl David,
but it was a tutorial.
i'm soooo thankful for my new friends.
they're all reeeally great people.
Thank God!
not gonna delete my friendster temporarily,
cos people from my school are adding me
-__-
Clara.
7:30 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
YAY!
i'm on a high!
lasy night was orientation's
jam n' hop.
which is basically some crappo band jammin
for a while before hoppin'!
dancing that is.
i danced so hard that my feet still hurt.
wish the music could be better though,
wish the people would groovee more!
i can't wait for monday.seriously.
and i'm gonna get a laptop, mac most prob.
i looove my class.
there's this guy who has like a 2k + camera.
so my friends and i made him take lotsa photos
of...what else?
us -_-
but the photo are seriously GREAT.
i mean it.
the cam just knows how to take very model-ly shots.
so hopely he'll get online and i'll get him
to send them pics over.
wellwellwell..
i'm tired.
woke up with a horrible headache.
the after effect of too much dancing?
and my flu finally got the better of me.
thus i had to skip make-up cell group.
i served at the bookstore today!
the guy is charge of my group is sooo
cute in a lil' brother way even though he's
older, and he's super nice.
i'm really glad with my choice of ministry =)
right..till next time..
clara.
11:09 PM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Orientation was todaaay!
And boy was it fun.
I've realised that the mind dominates
your day.If you tell yourself it'll be boring,
trust me, it will.
I was super sick in the morning,
what with a flu, sore throat, cough,
and OH cramps.
but i told myself to pick up my energy level.
it isn't good to be emo on the first day of school.
made many new friends.
what a coincidence! my tuition friend
is in the same class as me!
and she didn't even mentioned coming
to my poly in the 1st place.
same church as me, woohoo.
i really love my class,
all 20 or so people.
they're great fun, no airs about them at all.
i just can't stand 1 person.
without that person, this class would
be PERFECT.
but things never are, right?
and i know God put that person in
my class for a purpose.
so..always look on the brighter side of life!
don't ask me who tt person is =x.
gawd i'm so perky today.scary.
THERE'S A HOTTIE IN MY CLASS.
the only hottie, and he's in my class.
yay!
mixed blood ;)))
and super duper nice.
got sabo-ed a lot of times today.
the worst thing was being forced to do a
verrry hot dance with him and another girl.
=xxx.
totally didn't want to,
no matter how hot he was.
no choice though.
but he was so nice to me and that girl.
asking if it was ok,etc.
thats what i like.
i can't stand guys who just hop on your bandwagon.
totally rude.
at the end of it all, when
my course had a gathering,
i was so paiseh!! when i got complimented
in front of everyone else
for joining in even though
i wasn't exactly feeling my best.
the support leader was cautious how he
phrased it though..
he stressed tt it wasn't cos i was pretty.
-_-
met many of my sec sch pals.
we mustmustMUST get together for lunch
at campus when our schedules are more settled down.
poly life is incredible.
truly.
try 22 hrs of school a week.
tts like 4 hrs+ a day,
PLUS that includes 1 hr of break.
whoa!!
my dear phone is giving me LOTSA probs.
so...if you call me and i can't seem to hear you,
message me alright?
lazy to send it for servicing.
i find friendster SUCH an unnessessary
thing now.maybe even a pest.
the probs it causes me...
i might delete my account soon.
bye,
clara.
don't you know..what can be said and what can't?
don't tell other people stuff they're not meant to hear.
i think someone got hurt in the process.
brain before mouth!
10:09 PM
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
ahh..
blogging in absolute comfort.
my brother's room, air-conditioned.
the heat these past few days have been simply
unbearable.the sun certainly isn't holding
anything back.
i bore its full wrath on fri and sunday
when i was at the indoor stadium
queuing up for the Benny Hinn healing crusade.
gosh.the worst was on sunday.
my cell group had to wait for almost an hour under
the scorching sun.
thankfully i didn't get dark =x
school's starting soon.
in fact orientation is on thurs and fri.
i don't feel like going.
if it wasn't compulsory i wouldn't..
cos its at 8 30 in the morning!Howhow?
I can only wake up earliest after 12 these
few days.
sigh..bad slping habits..
finally, this saturday i can start serving in
the bookstore ministry!
but the reporting time is abnormally early
this week.
10 am.
i think it'll end at 9+pm?
with service in between.
cos the stuff at the indoor stadium will be shifted
back, which means lotsa packing to do.
once again today i am reminded of this statement:
Its a free world.
no matter how controlled we think we are,
we def. have freedom when it comes
to our finances and our choices.
take for instance:smoking.
people know its bad, but they still do it.
we may try to stop them with campaigns,
and most recently, freaky ads but
ultimately, in the end it is still their choice.
we can't exactly stop them can we?
i mean, they are using their own $$ to buy
cigarettes, and the choice is theirs.
can we stop them?
nope.
as long as the cigarette trade is still
legal, and ongoing, we can't stop
people from smoking.
cos its a free world.
all we can do is prevention and punishment.
take for instance stealing/shoplifting.
we try to prevent it, by installing CCTV,
hiring more security guards to patrol malls,etc.
we discourage people from doing it by punishing
offenders, in the hope of stopping others from doing it.
we send them to jail, cane them,fine them,etc.
but in the end. we can't exactly stop stealing, can we?
we can only discourage it.
if you think about things this way,
you'll realise that many things in
this world is out of our control.
because we can't control the human mind.
we can't dictate people's choices for them.
we can't stop crime.
and i think that no matter how efficient
a law system is,
it is still useless against the human mind.
it can't stop people from committing crimes,
because if in the end people
1)Decide not to care about the consequences,
2)Think that they can get away from it,
crime is never gonna stop,
unless every criminal can be nabbed during the crime
and put behind bars.
the importance of the human mind must never
be understated.what if one day someone
just feels like bombing several places?
just because of one person's unstability, the world
will be put in danger.
that makes me realise how much we are depending
on the police to nab criminals/terrorists in the act.
but the police is merely a force.
a human force.
and its numbers are limited too.
people/things are never fully reliable.
if they fail, we'll have to pay the price,
because we relied on them.
and trusted them.
but yet so many times,
we depend on them.
or at least that is what we tell ourselves
as an excuse for laziness.
how many of us are actually vigilant
while taking public transport?
how many of us observe a suspicious person
throughout the whole ride?
we probably just spare them a glance
or two before plugging back our mp3s.
food for thought.
wow.
i actually started out this entry
not knowing what to write.
but one thing lead to another,
and i have reached the end of my post.
much <3,
Clara.
4:37 PM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Remember in SS when we learnt that
one of the principles of good governance
is Transparency?
Aye, that stuff is true.
Was reading the newspaper when the various pays
of all the ministers after some changes
were made were revealed.
My my....one hundred thousand a month!
$$100,000+++!!
So, say...if you spend $2ooo,
you'll have $98,000 loose change still!
wow!
Not easy money though.
Being a minister in our sunny
lil island really isn't simple
Its super stressful...
But the good quality of governance
makes our country what it is today.
So yea, I think they deserve every cent
er wait i mean thousand of it.
OMG
My house is experiencing a sort of
onslaught of bees.yikes.
they all have a fixed flight route,
unless someone intercedes them
in their path.
they fly into the living room via
the huge windows,
zoom past the dining room and
into the kitchen where they fly out via the yard.
whats up with them?!
their powers of navigation are
too superb to be real.
they know the layout of my place at the first visit.
they apparently enter with a goal
in mind: to get from the pool
area to the reservoir area.
annoying like hell,
one zooming in every once in
a while, giving everyone and rainbow
a rude shock.
why choose my house, out
of the other 32 units in the block?
their windows are open too.
3 possible reasons, i think.
1) Bees fly at an average of
5 storeys high ^_?
2) One bee told another bee about
this shortcut and thus the whole gang
is using it.
3) My mum killed a bee that day,
cos it was trying to get into the shoe cabinet,
whereby it would settle into one of
the shoes and the unfortunate wearer
might experience a little stinging
and discomfort.
So the whole gang is back for revenge.
Not to sting us, but to annoy us to death.
What do you think?
Clara.
and when you go,
would you have the guts to say:
i don't love you
like i loved you
yesterday.
11:57 PM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
aww.
just watched for the 2nd time,
A.I Artificial Intelligence and cried
buckets.its my most fav movies
of all times.disturbing, complex and
intellectually challenging.
but yet deeply moving.
was checking through my email
today.
trashy mail aside, other emails
often tell of stories to virtually
nudge you in the side and
remind you of things like:
Treasure your loved ones.
yadda yadda.
i absolutely LOVE reading such mail.
There is also those cutsey ones talking
about what girls love about guys
and vice versa.
All such mail is welcome.
that is, unless, at the very bottom
of the page reads:
"This is a chain letter.
This is true-If you ignore
it bad things will befall you.
Send this email to
*0-5* people, your crush will hate you.
*6-10*people,your crush will notice you.
*11-15*people,your crush will call you tonight.
*16 and above*people,your crush will
grab you and kiss you."
-__-""
TO HELL with chain letters!
What spoilers!
I can only conclude this about chain-letter
starters.
They may start off with good intentions,
either to get you to appreciate people
better or to create that warm fuzzy feeling
inside about L.O.V.E.
But then they get greedy.and kiasu.
They desire their email to be sent ALL over the
net,for as many people as
possible to read the letter.
Thus, they attach a threat to the end of the letter.
Problem solved.
But what a way to spoil something nice.
Its like baking a cake and then smashing
it for fear that your lil' brother will eat it.
Make much sense?
Noooo.
Clara.
9:46 PM
Friday, April 06, 2007
SHIOK.
I have done it.
No, not find a bf.
Its even better.
....
I've pre-ordered HARRY POTTER
AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS!!
super ex leh the book.
$50+.
grumble grumble.
July 13th is the release date,
I think...
All I'll have to do is go down and collect it.
No jostling, my book will be reserved.
HP fans should go do that too..
lest it runs out of stock =x
what horror!
clara.
6:49 PM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
what's everyone up to?
as i'm writing this i'm getting
a sense of deja vu.
could it be that my posts are all
starting to sound the same?
i had lunch with my mum and my boss
at raffles city.
or rather, my mum's friend,
since i'm no longer working.
took my final pay check and the feeling
was awesome.
around $650 for two weeks,
only weekdays.
plus i only worked a shift on one of those days..
went to LV with them after a great lunch.
my mum has more or less chosen the bag she wants..
and i have chosen the purse i want.
;)
=(
but i can't have it.
can afford it, cos of all my pay,
but its really not worth it.
$600 for a wallet.-__-
haven't had much of an intellectual post for some time.
being away from school does that to you.
but anyway,
as inexperienced as i am in the arena of love,
i do acknowledge something--
that it is so very important not to
take love as a habit.
the moment your love for a person
becomes habitual, that's when your relationship
will slowly hit ground zero.
perhaps another way to phrase habitual love is:
taking for granted.
how dangerous that is!
when we take a person for granted,
we fail to appreciate whatever they are doing for us,
till a tragedy of some sort strikes.
that applies to our loved ones too.
i'm sure realising that your mum meant well
at her deathbed is an all too familiar scene
in serial dramas.
if love had a progress chart,
it would most probably take the shape
of a mountain for most.
at first, the love has to be cultivated.
then it'll reach its peak.
but before it goes downhill,
thats when you have to make a conscious
effort to make sure it doesn't.
i think the keyword here is: surprise.
as sweet as getting together for dinner
every once in a while and catching a movie
might be,
after some time it becomes a routine.
and that calls for change.
do you realise why unwed couples
are always so lovey dovey as compared
to long-term married one?
no no no, its not about getting over the thrill of love.
that should never happen.
its because of one word: insecurity.
a married man would take his wife for granted
much more easily.
why? cos technically, she's his.
its written in black and white,
and the vows have been said.
its secure.
whereas the courtship is still on for
unwed couples, even if you're 100%
sure that she'll be yours.
cos technically,
she's still free to leave you at her whim
and fancy.
she isn't bound to you by marriage.
that means you have to keep the game going.
someone once told me that couples
not planning to have children should stay
unwed as marriage always seems to
release a floodgate of problems.
yes,it is sweet to "get over
those hurdles together".
but why even make yourself stumble
in the first place?
but many people still prefer to marry.
for its symbolic reasons aside,
when you really love someone,
you get "kiasu".
;)
isn't kiasu-ism the reason for marriage?
i mean, apart from giving your children,
if any,a "stable" enviroment and "security",
marriage is a vow that:
you are his, only his,
and he is yours,only yours.
get it?
one way to put it is:
a vow to bind each other together through it all.
doesn't that sound beautiful?
another way is:
a kiasu move to ensure that you'll have all of him/her
forever and ever more.
=)
food for thought.
(eh, not trying to discourage marriage here!!
don't get me wrong!i'm not against it myself.
its just something to mull over,
like the ugly side of something beautiful)
xoxo,
clara.
10:31 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
today was officially my last day of work!
take note, don't drop by my workplace >.<
it was so sudden,
i was supposed to work on thurs,
and next thursday and friday.
but i'm glad that my boss was able to find
a new full-time staff..
todays lots of new stock came in.
all from korea where my boss had just returned from.
soooo pretty..
there was this pair of earrings that i was lusting
after.but it cost 98 -_-.
its only after things pass you by
that you start to appreciate them.
i used to complain about my job,
but now i realise how blessed i am
to have this job.
the pay is good, and i get paid to slack.
i'll def. go back during the hols.
school's starting soon..
i'll have to go shopping for clothes =(
i don't particularly like shopping.
warehouse's new collection is really enticing though
=p
i can't stand it when parents malign others
to make their kids behave.
e.g:
kid is running around, screaming.
parents get frustrated,and point
at an innocent person nearby
and say:"you see?korkor/zehzeh
is angry at you.keep quiet!"
and the poor person tries to smile
at the kid.
instead, the kid opens his eyes
really wide and shuffles backwards
till he bumps into his parent's legs
and grab their hands tightly,
all the time looking totally fearful
of the supposedly angry person.
on sat night i had dinner with my parents
at a restaurant and WHOA!!
the waiter was soooo cute.
=p
going to study at NAFA.
my mum asked him oO
i'm always grateful that i'm really
close to my mum.
i can tell her who i'm crushing on,
and she's always so funny.
she never once says:
concentrate on your studies!
love comes later!
maybe cos she knows that i'm so picky,
i'll prob die single =(
i've run out of things to say.
except that gerard way's voice in my ears
sounds so good.
clara.
11:32 PM