Tuesday, May 31, 2005
I'll Always Remember
It Was Late Afternoon
It Lasted Forever
And Ended Too Soon
You Were All By Yourself
Staring Up At A Dark Gray Sky
I Was Changed
today morning i woke ard 8 45.
fed rainbow,showered
and went to the dentist to remove my braces.
darn.
it really hurts when he pulls
out the brackets.
mum went to buy lunch,
then we went shopping at fox.
bought some stuff.
yesterday service was at expo..
was rather cold.
then we went to the food fair.
it was really crowded.
i ate so much that i thought i would burst.
tomorrow there is school at 9 00.
we're supposed to go through
our answer scripts.
man..im dreading it.
ok..dinnertime.
cya all soon.
im feeling so depressed.
no mood to blog.
if tomorrow never comes...
9:54 AM
Sunday, May 29, 2005
In the rain the pavement shines like silver
all the lights are misty in the river.
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight
and all i see is the stars in the sky.
i ache all over.sheesh.
the camp was really challenging,
but in the end i have no regrets.
day 1
we made our way to kota gelangi.
we set up our tents in a cave.
francine,jess n me in a tent
in a dark corner deep in the cave.
nice and clean.=)
in the aftnn we could not bathe..
cos there was too little well-water.
(yes,its a little brown)
we went cave exploring at night.
it was kind of flooded
and there were bats.
day 2..
long trekking in the aftnn,
in the heart of the jungle.
it was utterly gross.there were many swampy areas,
and muddy streams.
in all of those,
only a thin log was placed across.
so everyone got seriously muddy.
aft lunch we went caving again.
this time,
there were even tighter squeezes
and low ceilings.
oh,and we saw a baby monkey's skull.
yuck.
we wen abseiling later on in the day.
it was really high,35m.
the rocks were jagged
and some oarts were even concave.
nevertheless,
i survived and escaped with minor cuts and bruises.
at night,
there was the solo dropoff.
we were led to a jungle where we
were pklaced 15m apart
from each other with no torchlights.
it was pitch dark,
the kind where you could not even see
your hand in front of your face.
we stood there for 45mins.
was rather scary
but i kept myself busy.
day 3..
jeram besu hostel!!
finally proper facilities
such as beds and running water.
i did flying fox with mingyue.
since we were heavier,
we went faster.
it was really fun and we were laughing
all the way.
the halting part was bad.
then we crossed the river.
it was really fun.
aft lunch..we wen whitewater rafting.
or in the case,brownwater rafting.
it was great fun
though there weren't many rapids.
we paddled till our hands ached.
day 4
nothing much.
learnt some songs and went trekking.
i chose not to swim.
cos the water was really filthy.
then we took a bus to the resort
where we met up with all our friends.
thereafter we boarded a van to the train station.
the driver was crazy,doing 120
on the highway.
sure,its malaysia,
but the vehicle is a van!!
we boarded a train.
i sat beside francine
and we had a blast eating chips and sleeping.
i bought choc and hazelnut cookies.
day5
we arrived at tanjong pagar station.
my mum,dad and sis were there.
we had lunch
and now i'm back at home sweet home.=)
our love will make us strong together
we can be in love forever
just the two of us.
and when i get lonely hold me
we will understand each other.
when we're apart
i'm in your heart and
you'll be in my dreams.
5:55 AM
Monday, May 23, 2005
Walk me home
I don’t wanna go all the way alone
Won’t you walk with me home
Please take my hand
Come with me now to a special land
Baby won’t you walk with me home.
camp tomorrow.
eep..i haven't started packing tonight.
gotta wake up at 5 30 tmr!
so i'll be a good girl and sleep before 11 tonight.=)
swam this morning with my relatives.
my mum went to buy lunch.
but im not hungry.
two years later and you're still on my mind.
i must remember to bring salt along.
so watch out all you leeches who are preying on me!
bye pals..
cya when this stuff is all over.
i guess that's just the way the story goes.
love you all..wish me bon voyage~
5:01 AM
Sunday, May 22, 2005
i wanna run in the rain
with you by my side.
leaving everything behind,
running as fast as we can.
hold my hand tight
so we won't get separated.
what a pig i am.
after ice skating with francine
we had lunch at jurong east leisure centre.
woah we ate a lot..
long john silver..milo freeze..ice cream.
then she went to pick up camp supplies at lavender
while i waited for my dad
(he was playing golf at jurong)
to pick me up.
note:
florence-sad you could not make it..
we'll go all together during the hols, ok?
then i followed my dad to someplace to eat lunch!!
stole some of his food
and drank somemore.
straight after i came home
i played with rainbow then slept.
such a lazy bum..
i slept from 3 30-6 .
then i woke up to feed rainbow
and as an afterthought,
decided to blog.
mum and sis are sick.
don't know whether
they'll be well enough for church tmr.
=(
even though its pouring now,
the house is so hot!!!
im baking in my bro's room..
with tuesday comes the much dreaded
sec 3 camp at pahang.
ahhhh..
i don't wanna go!!
heck,
it lasts for such a long time!
i'll be back on sat.
there are some reasons why
i do not want to go.
1)there are many leeches!!
you like have to put salt on those icky things or burn them alive.
i've heard that they are actually
tiny things,
but when they are done,
they're gigantic beasts!!
and i wonder--
can those things transmit aids?!
never mind, i don't
wanna know the answer.
2)i have to sleep in a cave for two whole nights!
there are bats, and whereever you fnd them,
you also find bat droppings,
and that symbolises sleepless nights
due to the stench.
3)we'll be treading through thick vegetation!
and any normal being will eventually start
to itch after walking in knee deep forests.
4)you can't bring your phone.
even if you do,it'll be useless because
there is no
a)reception(no phone calls)
b) no radio.
5)there will be many insects,
probably hundreds of which are still undiscovered,
and potentially fatal.
with insects come insect bites.
*shudder
so there.
i could go on and on,
but im hungry
and i want dinner already =)
this has been a really long blog entry.
i hope i made your day.
10:17 AM
Saturday, May 21, 2005
The wind, its halting words are a gentle illusion
The clouds, the broken future like a distant voice
The moon, a shaking heart in an unsteady mirror
The stars, gentle tears in an overflowing stream
haha no tuition today.
mum let us overlook this lesson.
i think im gonna do badly for chem.
oh well.
i don't know any results yet.
not that im looking forward to it ,anyway.
long weekend!
monday is vesak day..
air rifle meeting today.
francine and i were chosen for some competition.
how unfair.
i really really wanted to do air pistol.
rainbow is cat-whistling very loudly now.
over and over again.
its formule powder is running out.
looks like we gotta make a trip to geylang this week.
ice-skating tomorrow!!
remember your gloves, girls..
=)
My heart that had been
in a moon-blurred mirror that flowed
Those stars that trembled and spilled
cannot hide my tears
10:08 AM
Friday, May 20, 2005
Don't lose your way with each passing day
You've come so far,
don't throw it away
Live believing,
dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story,
Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart
love rainy days.
i've been dreaming too much lately.
its unusual.
i mean, who dreams 3-4 dreams daily at night?!
i'm too busy dreaming that i can't even get some rest!
(if that makes any sense)
weird dreams i have.
out of these four,
1 of them is utterly humiliating.
the 2nd one is really nice.
the 3rd and 4th ones are really complex
and i wake up feeling so confused.
uurgh.
today my chinese teacher singled
me and some other pupils out.
he said that our listening was terrible!!
and i have only myself to blame.
my mind was drifting somewhere
over the rainbow during the exam.
today we had this camp briefing.
scarry...
at least im on the same bus as francine.
=)
hopefully on the same carriage on the train ride home too.
we have to catch the train at 2 am!!
no kidding.
im going jurong east to ice-skate on sat
with francine and florence.
i can't wait~
Souls in the wind must learn how to bend
Seek out a star,
hold on till the end
Valley, mountain,
there is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
8:52 AM
Thursday, May 19, 2005
what is home?
everyone has a different concept of the word home.
could it be a place where you're accepted?
could it be a place where your heart belongs?
could it be the place where you were born?
could it be the person whom you love?
i wanna go home.
10:13 AM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow.
Watched the stars crash into the sea.
If I could ask God just one question..
why aren't you here with me
tonight?
no school tomorrow;
no more exams,
its all ooover!!
im feeling so very happy today
even though im certain that
im gonna fail e-maths.
its seriously unfair.
only 2 qs in p2 were sec 3's work!
the rest were like angle of elevation
and stuff.
i forgot all about those!!
somebody roast me and eat me up
with a dash of pepper.
poor florence.
she still has poa paper tomorrow.
oh yeah, and i think im
gonna fail chinese listening too.
uurrgh.i hate those china accents.
we'll be checking our answer scripts
on thursday and friday.
mon is a public holiday =)
and tuesday it'll be off to pahang
for my school camp. =(
i just hope there won't be any leeches.
we'll be leaving by coach,
and returning by train at night.
i'll miss everyone. *stifles a sob.*
someday we'll know
if love can move a mountain.
someday we'll know
why the sky is blue.
someday we'll know
why i wasn't meant for you..
2:12 PM
Monday, May 16, 2005
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
when nobody else can help
Because you live
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
yikes.
physics paper tomorrow.
i just failed a physics test.eep.
late night was terrible.
it was raining so heavily.
plus there was lots of thunder and lightning.
evry time lightning strikes,
my whole room will light up.
of course, thunder will follow.
my sis slept like a log.
right now im all alone at home.
sigh.
everyone's gone to suntec
while im supposed to be mugging away.
sheesh.
rainbow has learnt to cat-whistle already!!
what a cheeky little fellow.
i hate staying at serangoon.
its so far away..
no one comes to visit anymore.
ok then.feeding time for rainbow.=)
If it's love that keeps us breathing
Gives us something to believe in
Is it fear that makes us blind?
Tell me, why is love so hard to find?
cuz i'll never know
if you never show
the way you feel inside.
8:46 AM
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Do you really have everything you want?
You can't ever give somethin` you ain't got
You can`t run away from yourself.
friday night.
love them.
i really hate my mouse.
it only moves up and down and
screams(literally) when you move it left or right.
mental note: never buy wireless mouses again.=)
btw im talking abt computer mouse.
not that furry thing with cute button eyes.
there was as usual chinese tuition today.
came back ard 9 +.
you know what?
mental people really freak me out.
oh, and i just found out that they
do not have to pay bus fares.
tomorrow is supposed to be sleep-in
day but my physics teacher wants
my class to go back for remedial at 8am!!
considering that i live at serangoon,
i'll have to wake up really early
even though my mom drives me there.
uurgh.hate physics.
im so gonna fail on monday.
well.
sec 3 camp coming..
my group has to sleep in
a cave filled with bats for two whole nights.
i bet i'll suffer from insomnia.
and when the stars fall i will lie awake.
you're my shooting star...*
2:43 PM
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
woke up at 9.
today is the last of stay-home-and-study(supposedly) days.
i've been mugging so im eating my breakfast now.
waffles.
there is still tuition today.
tomorrow is the much dreaded a-maths paper.
and elec geog.
yuck..
rainbow is about to be weaned soon.
its eating seeds like a pro now. =)
it was a tough process..
at first it wouldn't even look at the seeds.
so we went to buy this expensive
packet of seeds,coloured biscuits,nuts and what not.
guess the colours tempted her.
i've been watching some movies on cable tv these days.
one that rather intrigued me was The Torso.
it tells of the trial of evelyn dick,
the supposed murderer of her husband.(true story)
you know,
all the little scenes of her when she was young
showed that although she was subjected to abuse,
she still loved her parents dearly.
and she was willing to take the rap for this murder,
even though it was apparant to me that her parents were
the guilty ones.
she was almost sentenced to death,
till she met this lawyer
who helped her a lot.
this is such a classical tale of betrayal.
ok then..mug for geog now.
cya all later.
2:39 AM
Monday, May 09, 2005
sometimes you read me like a book.
and it scares me so.
sunday night.
social studies and english paper tomorrow.
ugh.
haven't started studying.
but i'll do so tomorrow morning,
since the papers start at 12 noon.
i can't help feeling so slackish.
apparantly florence is feeling the same way too.
the camp is coming and im not looking forward to it.
no way.
well.
2 chapts of s.s to study tomorrow.
mug mug mug.
wish me luck. =)
it hurts so
that you are ignorant of my feelings.
maybe one day you'll see...
2:05 PM
Saturday, May 07, 2005
Bah.
I'm sick.
I've got a cold,
a sore throat,
and a cough.
Beat that.
7:48 AM
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Sometimes it's wrong to walk away,
though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say...
uurgh.
i'm having a sore throat.
and it hurts so very much.
sigh.
happy labour day, everyone.
im feeling really sick.
and this is definitely not a good time.
what with exams and sch camp coming up.
simply tired.
i've been waking up at 7 30 everyday to feed rainbow.
(yes, even on weekends)
its so draining.
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
yup.
tons of hw left undone.
gotta run =)
11:12 AM
Sunday, May 01, 2005
Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
saturdays just rock.
im feeling so much better today
i guess i'll just leave people who hurt me out
of my life.
its better that way.
yesterday i had tuition with my sis
at bugis.
our parents dropped us off then went for bible study.
aft tuition me and my sis
looked around for potential mother's day gifts.
we couldn't find anything though.
then it was getting late,
so we decided to flag a cab.
im telling you,
its impossible to get a cab!!
most of them were occupied
while the others just drove past.
we wasted 1/2 hr running around
then we finally gave up and tracked
down a taxi stand.
the queue was like super long.
we spent another 1/2 hr waiting.
thank God we got this nice
english-educated taxi driver.
there was 1 problem..
he did not know the way to our house!
so it was time to take risks.
he kept asking us where to turn, etc.
we all took guesses and..
we made it home!!
yeah..next time
i'll try not to sleep while my dad's driving home anymore.
its not an easy feat.
rainbow is about to be weaned.
today she successfully ate a seed!
it was amazing,considering the fact
that it was failing miserably yesterday.
whenever i walk past the fridge,
i'll see the ominous mid-yr exam timetable.
it starts on friday.
i think the times this yr are ridiculous.
our papers start in the aftnn!
oh well..
mon's labour day!!
which means that no one needs to go to school!
well, almost everyone.
don't let your head rule your heart
don't let your world be torn apart
you don't always have to agree
with someone like me
10:15 AM