Thursday, August 31, 2006
I don't wanna look at whatI can't have.Long time no see guys!!
Anyway, to start off this photolog
with a bang, let me introduce
to you my 3 most favourite icons
at the moment:
lol.
I love maths jokes!! Squee!!
Moving on...
Did you know that Rainbow sleeps in
a fish tank with a cover at night?
We can't fit in a water bottle,
and the last time we tried she just
flooded the whole place so we
spoon-feed her water via a spoon
when she wakes up!!
Aww.
Teacher's Day
Cake Decoration competition 2006.
h.h, m.y and I fiddled around with
some stuff and TADA!!!
It was really quite pretty:
Lets admire its sheer beauty...
While I was out having dinner with
my parents, I encountered what
could have possibly been the most
disgusting sight EVER:
A hungry, slurping SNAIL.
Have I told you people how much I
ABHORE snails?
They are like slugs.
And slugs are like worms.
And I hate worms.
OMG quick someone squash it!!!
It makes me wanna hurl.
Rainbow LOVES to bite.
Yummy...flesh!!
Even innocent stuffed dogs are
not spared.
Ouch.A particularly nasty bite:
..What did I do??!!
I love spas. Their interiors are
always so..clean.
Saw this beautiful sight while
cruising in my dad's car:
That's all folks....
Thanks for dropping by!!
Clara.
6:37 PM
Monday, August 28, 2006
I swear, my sister has
an inflexible brain.
She can only study at
1 table in the house,namely,
the table in my room
which JUST so happens to hold
the computer.
My brother's computer is down..
its impossible to use.
And she REFUSES to let me
use the computer just
because of her one-table policy.
I wonder how much more of
this will I be able to tolerate.
People around me go:
WOW....you have a sister..
that's so cool..
The both of you can share
your clothes, feelings, etc.
Uh...Think again.
I grew up fighting with
my sister.
When we were younger,
it was more of a 'Who can win
more sympathy' thing.
Now, think along the lines of catfights.
Its terribly unglam,
but when you are sharing
a room with a person
that you're not fond of 24/7,
trouble naturally comes along.
And when you're sharing a computer
with that person......uh-uh.
Don't wanna go there.
So, I went through HELL
to go online.
So please appreciate this post.
On a sidenote,
I should be your idol because
I'm bloging when my
English Prelim papers are tomorrow.
But I was thinking:
Paper 2 can't really be practised.
Paper 1..can be! Through blogging.
Which is also a form of writing.
And I think blogging has helped me
tremendously.Try reading one
of my ancient posts and you'll get what
I mean.
After a particular episode
today concerning a certain
unwanted Jack Russell...
I decided to blog about animal cruelty.
I've never blogged about it before!
How could I have forgotten about it?!
Firstly, buying an animal
is not something that you should do on a whim.
Don't go: Hey! That dog is so cute! Let's buy it!!
Well, that same dog also
sheds fur, poops and demands constant attention.
Is it still cute??
Plus, even more consideration
should be put in before buying
intellectual animals..
Fishes and spiders are totally
different from dogs and horses.
How much time do you have to
spare? Is that enough for the animal?
So, today, as I was saying,
h.h, m.y and myself had a certain
unwanted dog on our hands.
Her ( I try not to call animals "It" )
name is Jess.
And she has been shuffled from owner
to owner her whole life.
Dogs have feelings too.
Would you like to be an "orphan",
and when you finally get
accustomed to a new home
or when you finally trust people,
you get shifted again.
What sort of life is that?
Furthermore, dogs have feelings too.
I was wondering ( sometimes I wonder too much )
WHY was it that Fate dealt
Jess such a harsh card?
Why couldn't she have been blessed
with a good, loving home?
whywhyWHY?
I was telling my mum about Jess
just now and suddenly
tears just started flowing down so freely.
It reminded me of a chinese
descriptive phrase,
xiang (4) duan (4) le xian(4) de zhen(1) zhu(1).
meaning: my tears fell like
pearls falling from a snapped necklace.
I admit that sometimes I can be
so cold to humans,
but when it comes to animals,
its a different story.
The innocence of animals, the fact that
they are defenseless and have a capacity to love
just disarms me.
After my O' levels, I'll
be intending to maybe work.
But for sure, if my age permitts
me to, I'll be helping out at the SPCA,
against all advice.
My mum is strongly against it
( Don't get me wrong, she LOVES animals too)
because she knows how
attached to animals I can get.
And she knows that everyday I'll be crying
when I see animals getting put to sleep;
the very same dog that I had fed or walked
just the previous day.
Sigh.
Thinking about all this stuff just makes me
feel so down.
Honestly, its not easy to own a pet.
Even though I love Rainbow to death,
sometimes I return home after school,
overwhelmed with school work
and exams.
Then I see Rainbow's cage, all littered
with HARDENED droppings.
And her water bottle, which needs
scrubbing.
Then her food bowl,
with empty shells blocking out
all the fresh seeds below
and littering the floor around her cage.
What's worse is when she
decides to make Bird Soup,
by throwing nonsense into
her water , causing algae
to grow, and needing me to pick
it out with a toothpick.
Seriously, I just leave it all to my mum.
But what about people
who don't have other reliable parties
to take care of their pets when
they " don't feel like it " ?
What's gonna happen?
Think about it.
Animal cruelty does not just mean
torturing animals.
It also includes acts of irresponsibility,
such as abandonment or neglect.
People who abuse animals are
disgustingly insensitive,
and people who neglect animals are
NO BETTER.
So think twice, before
you start singing
" How much is that doggie in the window?? "
That's all, folks.. blogger
is giving me that problem in which
when you try to add in a letter,
another one gets deleted.Groan.
These few days I just feel like
crying so much....
Clara.
30 takes???
Did you do it on purpose??!!
BYOTCH!!
9:04 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006
Ishouldn'tbebloggingbutican'thelpit-
lol.
I changed the random question in
my profile..and came up with a wacky
answer.go check it out!
Oh, I LOVE friday nights.
Even though I'm always alone at home
(like now)
but I have the whole house to myself!!
And that means that I'll be able to sit down
and think without anyone
disturbing me.
This thought has crossed my
mind so many times..
Its a d-oh kinda kinda thing
but if you probe it further..
you'll actually go somewhere
with your train of thoughts.
Food for thought: Each and everyone
of us was wired differently.
So what that means is:
Person 1 walks past a stray cat and
goes 'Awwwww..!'
Then he strokes it and fusses over
it and whatnot.
While Person 2 walks past it and thinks:
'Better not go near it.
Who knows what germs it might carry?'
And Person 3 thinks:
'Yucks!Time to call the SPCA.
I do not want such useless and dirty
creatures walking around!
They should ALL die!'
To Person 1,
Person 2 would appear to be
kiasi.
Person 3 would be heartless,cruel.
But to Person 2,
Person 1 would be crazy,
Person 3 would just
be..normal.
And to Person 3,
Person 1 would be fake,
pretending to be caring.
Person 2 would seem
to be a careful person.
You see?
So that is why,dear readers,
however hard it is,
we have to tolerate others.
what is weird to us is normal to them.
what is normal to us is weird to them.
I've been blogging frequently,
thanks for tagging!
But this weekend you'll realise
a lack of updates.
My physics practical(prelims)
is on monday!! Yikes.
Yea. Time to go..
Lotsa love,
Clara.
To leave all this behind.
8:19 PM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
I don't blame you for being you
but you can't blame me for hating it.
Hello..
I just felt like blogging.
I feel like writing 24/7 anyway.
I feel kinda drained right now.
today i went through
a roller coaster ride of emotions.
it has left me feeling so empty right now.
anyhow,
i thought i'll post something different.
So here are a few little known things about me.
1) I am a photoshop idiot.
2) I like to act dumb sometimes.
3) I don't know why, but I
have this thought that I can't coordinate my sense of hearing
with my sense of taste.When I'm using my mp3,
and I eat something,I always think that I
won't be able to taste anything.So I get really surprised
when I taste whatever I'm eating.
Everytime without fail, I get surprised.
4) I think I have a minor case of obsessive-compulsive
disorder.(OCD)
That means, I obsess over the smallest things
and that I am very specific when it
comes to certain things.
e.g: I have a whole routine when
I get ready to sleep.I try my best to walk
on cracks whenever I'm walking on tiles.
I can't wash my face 4 or 6 times in a row.
And if I break any of these routines,
I become anxious.
Don't ask why, I don't have a clue.
5) I'm a bathroom singer!
6) I'm a perfectionist. Whatever I have
planned out in my mind must go accordingly.
If not, I get really upset and cranky.
7) I explode when people rush me
in the morning.
8) I'm not a morning person.
9) I want the best that I can get.
And I will not settle for anything
lower, even though it might only
be temporary.I want to leap to the
best straight away.
10) I am extremely patient.
11) I never PMS.
The list could go on but my mum
is rushing me to go do something.
Grrr.
I'm finding it very hard to bear with her
these few days.Don't know why.
I've got too many things on my mind, probably.
Oh! Do this simple activity
before switching your computer off today.
Go to www.google.com.sg .
Google has a feature called "I'm feeling lucky".
So when you search for a topic
and click on that button,
the search engine will bring you
to the webpage which is most
relevant and linked to your search.
Get it?
So, go to www.google.com.sg
and type "failure" under search.
Then click the "I'm feeling lucky"
button.And watch what happens.lol.
Alright,
that's all for today.
Now I have a huge problem:
I can only blog on one computer
and view my blog on another.sigh.
but its worth it.i loove this new skin.
Everything is F*-ed up straight from my heart.
Tell me what will you do when it all falls apart?
clara.
8:45 PM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
The friction hangs thick in the air
like a death wish.
My first post on this skin!
And if you can read it, congrats!!
I still can't view it on the other com.
Anyways,
I expect that I'll be sticking
to this skin for quite some time,
seeing as it took me 4 hours
to edit everything to my
liking, headings and all.
Lets get started.
This post will be on
anonymous grounds.
I just love doing that.
YOU.
Like I told you that day,
"Please stop defending your habit!"
You have an illegal habit.
I honestly won't bother if its legal,
but it's not.
So that's why whenever anyone
or any authorities brings up
the subject, you try to make a
joke out of it, and insult the speaker
in front of everyone else.
And that pisses me off
to no end.
Why?
Because it shows that you KNOW
that it's illegal, and wrong for
you to do it.
And that is why you feel a need
to defend it.
I mean, people have already said what
they possible could.
It's all for your own good, you know.
But if you still choose to take this path,
well,nobody gives a damn.
I'm just surprised that you
haven't been caught yet.
You're superficial,
I'm a misfit.
But that's ok.
Clara
4:44 PM
Monday, August 21, 2006
Important:
If you can see this, TAG.
click on the fourth box.
I don't care what you say.
Just say something.
Because I can only view
this new FABULOUS! skin
on another computer.
That's fine for me, because
I can just use the other computer.
But I don't think its ok for
the rest of you who only have/use
one computer..
so PLEASE!!
Tag.
Thank you.
8:43 PM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Hola!
All these events took place on
Wednesday,16th August.
The reason why this post
only came out today
is because:
I took that long to make this photolog.
Pictures are illustrations.
So that would make this a very
illustrated entry.
And thus I present my first photolog!!
Yea my food poisoning is overr!
nasty thing.Pardon the photo qualities
in some of the darker images:
1) They were taken at 10+..
2) They're taken with my Chocolate Phone.
Enough said..
I took the apartment bus to...
Hougang Mall!
Don't know why I love that place.
Its not exactly a one-stop for everything.
Its late.
And I decided to take a walk around.
Its windy and dark too..
See how the tree is bent by the wind?
(my background is interfering,
click on the picture.
when you're done, click back.
I'll change my blogskin soon.)
Lounging ( actually snapping away)
at a cosy pavillion.
The steps lead to the carpark.
The pool right by my feet:
Too tempting..
Its awfully windy.
Look at the surface of the waters:
The lights burn like a myriad of stars
against the night sky.
What lies above?
A spacious balcony:
I can look below!
I feel like a peeping tom.=)
Move on to the next post!!
I split it because I
was having a hard time uploading pictures.again.
3:20 PM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Continued....
I can look into people's homes.
Home beckons..
Whenever I look at tall building
structures, I feel an odd surge
of pride and I think:
Man MADE this, for Pete's sake!
The tennis courts all lit up:
And I go back up to study!
Night romps,
regardless of where they are,
are fun.
plus its even better if you are alone.
the feeling that someone's watching you
sends little thrills up one's spine.
My mum loves flowers!!
And behind is the Garden Of Eden painting.
On a side note, I really do like pearls.
And we've reached the end!!
Hi Rainbow!
Tell the readers to go check out my
profile( you can access it by clicking
on the 2nd X on the left and clicking on the link)
because i put in a new picture!!
And say bye, Rainbow!!
Hoi, girl, whatcha looking at?!
haha.
Bye guys!
Clara.
6:37 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
yellow is such a mockingly cheerful colour,
especially on a day like this when i feel like CRAP.
Because i really do have food poisoning.
I couldn't go to school today.
I've never been absent for manymany months now.
Thank goodness I feel better today,
as compared to yesterday.
My home is located somewhat nearby to
Paya Lebar Air Base.
And i'm telling you,
the noise level is terrific.
detect any sarcasm?
today,especially today,
planes are passing by every few mins
and its giving me a mighty headache!
WHY??!!
Great.
Now i hear a helicopter.
I blogged yesterday.
Go read if you haven't.
Clara.
3:27 PM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Meet: The infamous Rainbow!
My toy bird!
Nah.
Its real.
It just looks like a stuffed toy.
Rainbow is clumsy.And colourful.
So that makes it a clown!
I blogged yesterday! Go read!
Today i had to skip my chemistry practical
AND my 4 hour long tuition.
I think i've got food poisoning. AGAIN.
Some________ poisoned my food.
Fill in the blanks yourself!
Clara.
5:35 PM
Monday, August 14, 2006
If you haven't read my previous post,
please do so.
Personally, i found it rather sensational.
TODAY! was my English Oral.O' levels.
It was ok.
Yup.
I was talking a lot.
The examiner rushed me along a little bit.
Altogether I took..15 mins.
I was telling myself to hold on till 15 mins.
Yay I did it!
I don't do this often.
Maybe i should do it more.
Here's my pic!!
Handphone + MP3 = Very happy me.
I wouldn't consider myself tech savvy,
but I sure couldn't do without technology.
Enjoy!
I haven't been sleeping well thanks to my sis.
*grumbles*
Check out my dark circles!
I'm in my mum's toilet.
I like it a lot.
Its the only toilet I use.
please..don't distribute my photo as
though it were a flier...
I'll tell you anything you want to hear...
cause that's just who I am this week.
5:18 PM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
you know, there are some people
who harp on and on about natural beauty.
they are everywhere.
and at the mention of makeup or surgery,
they put on a O.O face and
say " NEVER! NATURAL BEAUTY IS THE BEST!! "
You know what?
All these people can seriously just BURN.
Like what Xiaxue said,
you want natural beauty??!!
Fine. Don't brush your teeth, don't comb your hair.
THERE! NATURAL BEAUTY.
And I add on:
Girls, don't wear makeup on your wedding.
Natural!
Prom night, no makeup.
Natural!!
Like do you see the point here??!!
And then they start highlighting some celebrities,
saying : " I like her because she's natural. "
Yeah right.
All celebrities use makeup.
Unless you're Wishbone, the dog.
Or Lassie.Once again, a dog.
Or unless you're some young child.
But heck!
Even kids get powder slapped on their
face before appearing on the TV.
Stop living in your make believe world.
In this world, there is hardly
ever any natural beauty.
Unless you don't give a shit
about the way you look.
Then of course, you'll look like shit.
Natural, but no beauty.
We brush our teeth, comb our hair, pluck our eyebrows.
I would hardly consider that natural.
Natural?!
Why not wear clothings made of grass?
Or wood?
Natural WHAT.
So think twice before you speak.
Natural, my foot.
Nature can be naturally beautiful.
Or course, ITS NATURE.
And the word natural comes from nature.
But humans?!
We are intelligent.
And over the years, we have
modified our images.
To become more beautiful,
but less natural.
What do you think??
9:41 PM
Monday, August 07, 2006
Prelims= Lesser posts!
Time to mug!
Even if i do post,
it'll be to complain.
this is the first time in my life that
i'm preparing for an exam beforehand.
usually i study the day before.
shocking, huh?
i intend to do well.
so my last meaningful post topic
for the next many weeks:
Relationships.
Analyse your relationships
after you read this.
I hereby present
the 'Clara's relationship test.'
Btw, relationships= friendships too.
1) Ask yourself why you are with that person.
Is it because you sympathise with
that person?Pity does not equal to love/friendship.
2) Does the person sympathise with you?
3)Are you truly happy when you
are with that person?
Can you see yourself in the future with him/her?
***4)Are you using the person to get
what you want?
e.g: Befriending the top pupil in class
so that you'll have free tuition,
Befriending this girl because
'her brother is hot.'
5)Could the person be using you
to get even with someone else?
e.g. Big quarrell among best friends.
then one of them befriends YOU.
and you just so happen to know
that her ex-best friend hates YOU...
6)Could the person be making use of you?
e.g: Spending your money,
asking for treats,
borrowing your stuff.
***7)Could YOU be making use of the person?
***8)Are you with the person
only for company?
8)Is that person with you only for the company?
9)Does the person treat you like you're a toy?
Playing with you then discarding you
when he/she is bored?
e.g:Mon-Shopping with you.
Tuesday-Friday--No news.
Weekends--Go out with you.
***10)Are YOU treating the other person as a toy?
11)Does the other person treat you like
a punching bag by throwing all his/her
emotions on you?
***12)Do YOU treat the other person
like a punching bag??
13)Does the person only like
you for the way you look?
e.g: Monday--best friends.
Tuesday-Bad haircut.
And for the rest of the week
till your hair returns to normal, no news.
***14)Do YOU only like that person
for the way they look?
If you have said YES to any of these
questions,its time to think things through.
seriously.
And if you said YES to any of the ***
questions,
errr....please try to be a better friend yeah?
Right! Farewell!!!
Clara.
6:58 PM
Friday, August 04, 2006
no colours today.
because i've just used up all my emotions.
so now i'm like a blank piece of paper.
white.
i speak the lingo.
SO SHOOT ME.
Only time will tell...
That's all,
Clara.
10:42 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
today's post is meaningful.
so read on.
i want to share with you something
my cell group leader shared with
me on..saturday.
its about dealing with hurt/bitterness.
i think if you can do all these..
you'll lead a happy life.
two 'rules'
: Great successes are often followed by great failures.
deal with them.
:Great services in life are often followed
by great forgetfulness.
you can do a hundred good deeds to a person.
then you do something bad.
believe me, the person will
probably only remember the bad.
that's how people are.
When we are hurt/taken for granted,
here are 4 steps we can do.
1) Don't curse it.
don't get mad and start blaming the whole world.
because when you hide hatred in your heart,
then YOU will be in the wrong,
even though you were not in anyway wrong
at the beginning.
2) Don't rehearse it.
Get over it! Leave the past behind!
Stop replaying the scene over and over
in your mind--you'll just get more and more pissed.
Rehearsing all your hurt is
just like driving and looking backwards.
you WILL crash.
Look to the future.
3) Don't nurse it.
Don't place a seed of hatred
in your heart and grow it.
For if you do, you'll just be
a petty and bitter person.
Throw out the seed.
Why do you let bad things grow in your
heart?
4) Disperse it.
Throw it away.
Will hatred bring you wealth
or happiness?NO.
In fact, it'll bring sadness
and misery into your life.
And the last 'rule'.
Its a golden rule...
: Great shortages in life are often
followed by fullness.
When you seem to be stuck
in a desert, an oasis is just around
the corner! Do not despair.HOLD ON.
and now, my main reason for this post:
Something i've been dying to write
about, but i have kept pushing
it to the back of my mind.
but today i decided that its the day
to blog about it.
Please:
If you know what i'm talking about,
then good for you.
If you don't, then please
respect my privacy.
after today i really don't want to
think about it anymore.
That is, unless, it resurfaces.
Right.
Today i have made up my mind.
When you keep sacrficing
but you don't benefit,
you keep trying.
I'm a patient person.
But even patience has a limit.
And i've reached it.
I'm throwing in the towel.
I don't see any point
in trying to salvage the situation.
Its a waste of time and effort.
When people hurt you,
you are not at fault.
But if you keep that hurt inside
your heart and let it grow into
bitterness, then you have sinned.
against God.
I don't want my whole life
to be a sin.
So i'm letting it go.
The whole issue.
A mountain made out
of a molehill.
I want to lead life
with a clear conscience.
And the last time i checked,
i DO have a clear conscience.
So there's no better time to let
go than now.
I'm not going to let your
thoughtless actions affect me anymore.
Never again.
I have just installed
Norton Antivirus in my heart
right beside your name.
Surprise surprise!
The firewall is switched on
to block all incoming unidentified objects.
No more trojan horses to
enter my system.
I'm not going to take anymore risks.
For now,
strangers/acquaintances sounds good.
But if you want to treat me
like your enemy, then i have nothing to say.
I won't be hurt,
I won' be angry.
I won't care.
Time heals all wounds,
but it leaves a scar.
True?
So from now on,
you can do whatever you want to me.
I won't retaliate back,
I won't fight back.
I hope that makes you happy.
Really.
Whatever you do to me now
will only be a reflection
of who you really are, your true self.
If you are nasty,
then others will know that you're nasty.
Life's fair.
If you ever do get over this,
though i highly doubt so,
then good for you.
If you never do...
well you're just showing others that you are petty.
Love and patience has a limit.
And i think i've just snapped.
So peace out, sweetheart.
I wish you all the best in life.
p.s:
I really love my new baby.
Its red, its black,
its the CHOCOLATE PHONE! lol.
p.p.s:
If you know me well,
and you will simply die
if you don't know what i was blogging about,
call me.
I can spare 5 mins.
=)
3:50 PM
