Saturday, January 27, 2007
omgomgomgomg.
i'm having post-O-jitters.
what's new??
every night its the last thing i
fret about before i sleep.
and i've had several nightmares before.
people don't understand why i'm
so scared about it.
the reason why i'm so worried is
that i totally screwed up elec geog,
which is 50% of combined humans
WHICH has to be counted in for mass comm.
everywhere.
its the only thing thats making me scared.
i'm really ok with the rest.
ok,
topic switch.
you know, its a total joke to me
when people threaten to ruin their lives.
confused??
some e.gs:
1) Mom: You can't use the computer for the next week!
Son: If you don't let me use it i'll skip school!!
2) Guy: I really don't love you anymore...
Girl: If you don't love me i'll kill myself!!
3) Guy: If my boss doesn't promote me
i'll rather quit and live on the streets!!!
...
funny??
its their own loss if they carry out their threats.
one thing about most of these threats (e.g 1,2)
is that they
can only be carried out on the people who
love and care for you.
try such threats on a stranger.
he'll scoff and walk away.
why?
cos its your own life that you are messing
up, none of his business.
only the people who are concerned about
you will actually appease you in order
to avoid your carrying out these threats
because your future and your life matters
to them.
and that's precisely why i can't stand such
people.they're misusing other people's love
and taking advantage of it to manipulate them.
if this is what people get in turn for
loving you, i suggest they abandon you.
looking back at e.g 1,
the mother son scenario,
i'll say: if you don't study hard,
its your own loss.you'll be the one
suffering in the future.
for e.g 2,
the boy girl scenario,
i'll say: if you're going to forsake
your life over a guy, maybe its true
that your life isn't worth living.
for e.g 3,
the angry worker scenario,
i'll say: grow up.put aside your pride.
you're working for others,
you're not your own boss.
and clearly the worker thinks very highly
of himself, as though his contribution
is essential for the company's survival.
there are honestly loads more hardworking people
out there.
****
you know how people are always arguing
about which sex has it better in life??
a.k.a male vs female
actually its all fair.
most people claim that girls
are pampered, never need to get their hands dirty,
are far more luckier than guys.
true.
but...
girls also suffer from monthly annoyances,
are placed in charge of reproducing (good grief!),
and have to worry about appearances.
and somehow the guy always has the last say,
the dominance.
plus girls are always at a disadvantage no matter what.
SO, in return for all that sh*t, girls get treated better
to make up for all the unfairness.
and that is where the guy's disadvantages come in.
slogging their whole lives to support their family,
seeing a girl home to ensure her safety,
pampering her.
and not to forget NS!!
muahaha.
its all fair and square.
****
i don't understand why people are so
shocked when i say that i'm not fond of kids.
i mean, are all girls supposed to like kids??
here's my logic.
some people like animals, some people don't.
likewise, some people like kids,
some people don't.
****
i know this entry is all over the place,
but every row of ******
is like a division.
of a diversion.
or whatever.
goodnight.
10:58 PM
Friday, January 26, 2007
its nearing feb..
meaning that the jc people
are settling in well and that
the dreaded results are being
released soon..
anyone got any outside info
as to when it'll be released?
;)
or maybe the release date last year,
so i can brace myself.
super boring these past few days.
i was supposed to work on wed
and thurs, and supposed to earn
about $100..but i had gastric again.
and i had been eating properly..
sigh.
i suppose once it attacks..
it'll always drop by for a visit every
now and then.
i've been thinking about it.
and yup i'm interested in giving modelling
a shot...
but i don't wanna pay for a portfolio!!
ahhh!!!!!
its like $500??
within the past 6 months 6 or more
people have told me to give it a shot.
the $$ is not bad too.
$400 for a 40 min photoshoot?
woah!
what i really really want to do is runway..
but i'm too short =(
they need 168 and above i think..
i need to grow 6/7 cm.
so anyone...wants to take a trip to an agency?
wonder if my parents will allow.
they keep harping on people getting cheated.
-_-"
anyway, for your entertainment,
here you go..
MUST WATCH!! super duper funny!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4uG85Oaca_o
its aroused some anger,
but honestly, people shouldn't be so serious.
lighten up,
no one is making fun of anyone..
we're laughing at the antics,
not the religious taboo.
its all in your own mind.
enjoy!
clara.
p.s/ short post,
i'll let the video do the talking!
1:19 PM
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
went to sentosa with my parents and some
other people.
my parents were looking for a place to hold
some function in.
sentosa has changed so much, its been 1.5 years
since i last went there.
should go there with my friends sometime soon.
there's so much more to sentosa than beaches.
and i totally miss underwater world.
tomorrow might be an interesting day.
working.
the point i'm gonna make today is:
if you want people to listen to you,
you better be a reflection of what you preach.
get it??
several e.gs:
1) If bill gates and a beggar were to preach
about ways to get rich, whose seminar
would you go to??
2) If kelly clarkson and william hung were to
teach singing methods, whose seminar whose
you go to??
3) If a university lecturer or an uneducated fellow
were to give you tuition, whom would you choose??
of course the one who specialises in the said topic.
have you ever encountered people who told
you to do something this way when their own
life was the opposite??
infuriating, isn't it??
you feel an incredible urge to say:
say people say yourself!!!!
you tell me to study hard while you're slacking??
you tell me to save $$ when you're splurging $$??
like hell am i gonna listen to you.
i'll smile and nod my head but inside i'm
going "noo waaaay..."
also there exists some people who live life one way
but then when they live it another way they slam the
previous way.
e.g:
X used to be thrifty.
but one day X started spending $$ on branded stuff,
and says:life is short, spend $$ while you still can.
that's fine.
but then X proceeds to slam thrifty people:
all these people..save save save.
they'll die before they get to spend their $$,
so STUPID.
i get irritated at these walking contradictions.
and maybe i would poke fun at X, saying:
you used to save $$ too...
and X would say:
ya lah..i was not so smart...being stingy.
and then one day when X runs out of $$,
X will slam people who spend $$,
saying: they're so DUMB, next time for sure
they'll have no future!!!
stay small house, drive small car.
grrr.
in short, they promote whatever they are and slam
the opposite of what they are.
get a life.
clara.
xoxoxo
8:23 PM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
how has life been treating you people lately??
been working on thurs and fri.
tiring but rewarding.
fri was entertaining though.
there was some pre chinese new year
celebration.maybe i just don't appreciate
them, but they were rather awful.
in particular, one of the dance items.
it involved many girls decked out in
some egyptian like costume which
was so orange, it couldn't be any more orange.
basically they surrounded a man.
now, this man was singing...
some weird language.
actually he was wailing,
to be exact.
whatever it was, it was cringe worthy.
and if their intent was to wake the dead, they
sure did.
one amazing performance was that of
a man.
he could whistle just like a bird.
without moving his lips.
enough about that.
had any embarrassing moments lately?
i've had my fair share.
one prominent one was as follows:
i had just alighted from my mum's car
with my sis.
then, i spotted the cutest mynah ever.
you know, the black bird.
it was small, fat, and round as a ball.
couldn't help it..
i squealed and chased it around.
then after it flew away i turned around
and saw 2 guys staring at me,
dumbfounded.
-_-''
was so paiseh man!
recently there's a show called the arena..
like a debate among schools.
one topic was:"teenagers are self-centred, do you agree?"
or something like that.
my answer is, YES.duh.
no doubt about it.
there ARE some teens who aren't self-centred,
but those are usually the minority.
there are much more paris hiltons in the
world than angelina jolies.
one e.g.
just one.
after a taking a group shot,
when you look at the photo,
who do you look at first?
i rest my case.
that's why people are like"eee..that photo is not nice".
when actually its just that they took a bad shot,
and everyone else looks ok.
do you think that most of us lets
the happenings of the world affect us?
nope, unless we are affected directly.
tsunami, so what?
our lives still go on.
only the minority actually offers their aid.
its a dog eat dog, cat eat cat world,
and people learn to watch their own backs.
we're brought up to be self centred.
our parents teach us to share.
yup the key word is share.
would your parents tell you to give
up all you have to others and suffer yourself?
hardly...
they love you and wouldn't want you to suffer.
sometimes love brings about selfishness too.
its inevitable.
narcissistic we are.
in a bid to get readers to tag..
i'll launch this thing.
called Q of the day.
where i ask you a question,
and you give an answer on the tagboard.
come on, say you'll do this pleaaase?
Q of the day:
What depicts love to you?
like what image makes you think about L.O.V.E?
yup..
my answer is somewhat surprising.
it would be seeing people sharing a newspaper
on the train.
as in, one person is reading while the other
is reading over his/her shoulder.
and he/she knows it, but is ok with it.
that mutual comfort screams love to me,
and i get a warm fuzzy feeling inside.
how about you??
clara.
xoxoxo
the exterior of a person may change,
but what matters is that the interior remains
the same.
so there.
10:28 PM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
i'll be working later.
but i'm so zz tired cos last night
i tried something stupid.
i looked out of the window.
there were sooo many stars,
best of all, the orion constellation
was finally in sight after its weird cycle.
so..
i decided that i'll sleep on the couch.
i couldn't sleep till 3 am.
the wind was too chilly.
and there were crazy people sounding
their horns at such an unearthly hour.
finally gave up,
and went back to my room.
haunted by an absolutely freakish nightmare.
oh.btw.
i'll be going to tp for their open house on sat.
around 2+?
who else is going?
or are you all slacking around -_-.
better go get ready.
bye,
clara.
did anyone read the sunday times?
people can make thousands from maplestory
in mere months...HMMM........
go tag people!!
1:18 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007
right.
sigh.
bad day..
btw i blogged yesterday..
i think the last part is interesting.
go read!
photolog today cos i'm not feeling up
to writing a lot.
i'm sick =(
went to the doc today.
i woke up in the morning with
a sharp pain ripping through
my stomach every few seconds.
at first i went:
^%#^&$ FOOD POISONING!!
turned out to be gastric..
due to irregular meals.
like i'll wake up at 12, eat at 2,
skipping breakfast.
but i really can't bring myself to
eat anything in the morning.
even if you plop crab in front of me i
won't touch it.
plus i tend to skip meals then eat a lot at a time,
thus screwing up my system.
had to eat a chewable pill.
it tasted like solid colgate.YUCK.
ok, i'll let the pics do the talking now.
blah.
my stomach hurts like HELL.
Recent activity...
something like rock climbing..
but with no ropes.
it was some shophouse converted
to this place..
gosh.one hand!
photoshoot time!
model of the day: Rainbow
IT WAS REALLY HARD.
SHE KEPT FIDGETTING.
shot 1 was baad.
i macroed the cage bars instead
of her.
but i think her cuteness made up for it.
Take 2.much better.
........
What a short attention span -_-
She started day dreaming.
Alright, lets wrap up this photoshoot.
jiggled the cam to get her attention.
Hear that??
Aww she's sooo cute.
And i'll leave you with a lil' joke...
Actually we only died cos we bumped into boss.
but those flame throwing dogs made things worse too =(
k bye.
clara.
4:46 PM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
not-so-boring day.
shall post with pics at a later date..
it takes too long.
my CS skills have deproved sharply.
why?
cos my brother changed his mouse to
some imported one, razer diamondback.
and..its a gamers mouse.
which means..
high sensitivity...
its like using an ice cube as a mouse.
anyways...
i never realised pc bunk was so ex!
my friend said it costs like $5 an hour,
as compared to other places which
charge $2..
but cos its double exp..
my brother has a membership card.
and when he played for 1/2 hour,
he paid like a dollar or so?
see the diff??
i was just thinking that i should pick up horse riding!
like for real, not just trail riding.
but the 2 clubs in s'pore charge a nifty 5 figure membership
fee before one can even take lessons on its premises.
so..
i called up the gallop stables.
which is a new stable at pasir ris park.
$400 for lessons..like around 8 lessons..
i can pay for that myself!
but..
she said that i'll have to purchase the gear..
around $250.
the price is really very subsidised..
but the thing is..what on earth do i do with them?
this will be just a hobby,
i think the gear will become a white elephant at home.
why can't they just loan gear?
i'll sign up for it in a jiffy.
i mean..
my tuition used to cost $540 ++
a month..
this is $400, and its for the whole course.
one little problem..
gallop stable uses ponies.
many people mistaken ponies to be
baby horses..i used to too.
but actually..its just a smaller horse.
so you can like have a 15 yr old pony.
i prefer horses loads more...
they're bigger..
much bigger.
they run faster and they're more handsome!
i wanna have a horse of my own.
it'll be black, a she, and her name will be ragdoll.
oh well...
maybe some other time.
have you ever encountered such people in life before?
i can't stand them.
they promote themselves when they're good,
and hide away when the going is bad.
confused?
here's an e.g..
i'll call the person X.
X has not done her homework.
and when one of the classmates
mentions homework,
she goes: eh don't tell teacher!
i think she has forgotten..
i didn't do anyway.shhh...thanks!
everyone is guilty of doing that
at some point in their lives.its ok.
but then...
one day, X has done her homework.
and even though many others have not done theirs
too, X waves her hand and calls out:
Teacher! i've completed the homework
you assigned!!
grrrr.
one more e.g.
X has just gotten her allowance.
X goes out with her friends to the movies.
X loves the movies.
by the end of the week,
X is broke, and unable to go to the movies.
so guess what?
X disses the movies.
she says:
going to the movies is such a waste of money and time!
we should just rent a movie.
plus when you go to the movies you have
to buy food and drinks..
i think its not worth it.
and the last e.g:
X has always wanted to attend abc jc.
but when her results come out..
alas!
she can't make it and instead attends xyz jc.
and X says:
abc jc is so lousy..
luckily i didn't go there..
the teachers suck and the students
are all so proud.
tada.
just the sort of person i can't stand.
clara.
xoxoxo
7:46 PM
Friday, January 12, 2007
Howlite.Lion eye.Aquamarine.Coral.
my head is buzzing.
i've just returned from work!
10-10.
12 hours. standing in heels.
oh and i sold an $89 necklace and
a $10 bracelet.
which gives me..$1 commission.
-_-
i have come to realise that majority
of buyers are tourists.
one splurged $300 on a necklace!
the diff. between locals and tourists
is that locals buy whatever is cheaper,
while tourists buy whatever they like more.
which is actually a smarter shopping method.
not working till next week thurs, fri.
i wanna go out a lot !!!
and play cs a lot !!
oh btw i've mastered it.
easy peasy.
2 steps.
1)always hang out in a group.
2)buy the most ex. rifle.
my score is always the highest in the team!
except...i never have anything to do with
the bomb.
i play counter-terrorist anyway.
C-T all the way!
i haven't seen mingyue for so long =(
o results are drawing nearer..
i'm scared ok!
esp. cos i'm aiming for a specific course.
don't tell me i have to study private?
or even worst, overseas.
but overseas studies are super speedy,
cos you get to jump years!
i know of a 17 yr old who is in uni!
and a 16 yr old who is approaching a levels fast.
life in s'pore with its gruelling education system
promises everyone a stereotypical life.
finish uni...20+ years old?
work.
save like hell.
get married.
have children.
die.
sad much?
....
clara.
11:20 PM
Thursday, January 11, 2007
RAWR!
I'm mad.
last night blogger was bugging me
to switch to the newer version..
so i did...
and if you were here last night,
you would have seen that some
silver blogger bar was blocking the
box which was the thing you
click to access my entries.
so..
changed my skin.
took like 2 hrs to find
something not too emo,
or worse of all, containing
some chio caucasian chick
which has zero relevance at all
to the skin.
the skin is..ok i guess.
except that the blog table span is small.
what makes me happy is the song playing!
Evanescence-Anywhere.
it gets cut off somewhere near
the end..but still its nice ain't it?
clara.
12:14 PM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
my sis and i are diggin' evanescence's anywhere.
super duper nice song!
last night i went to cineleisure with
h.h to play pool!!
does that sound exciting?
not exactly..
all the coloured balls seemed to be blind
'cept for the white one,
which heads straight for the hole without fail.
oh i highly recommend old chang kee's
yam pie!
its very nice.and cheap.
we were at some traffic light junction,
when h.h thought this whole group of'ah bengs were
gonna ask for my number.
i glanced over, and when the lights turned green
i crossed the road while mantaining
a far far distance from them.
surely that says: no, not interested?
after that h.h went home,
while i went to meet my parents
who were shopping around there.
and...had a second dinner at
newton food centre.
obviously that place is meant for tourists,
everything is so ex compared to elsewhere.
today i went shopping with my mum
at suntec.
nothing compares to weekday-shopping.
its so quiet.and when its quiet, service is always better.
bought clothing from guess(sales!)
and fox(sales!).
i love sales.
oh and since i don't like people looking at me,
i decided that a pair of shades would do the trick.
i totally fell in love with a guess one but....
it was $230.
i will never pay that much for a pair of shades!
even though it had nice crystals embedded at the sides.
so...
i bought another pair from some pushcart for $22.
see the diff?
so now i can hide away from the world's prying eyes!!
muahaha!
but h.h said something which i thought made sense.
she said:"if you don't want people to look at you,
then why do you want to become pretty?"
welll.......
i don't know.
out,
clara.
p.s: gonna play counterstrike now.
i must master it...i must spot the cursor
when the enemy strikes!
9:25 PM
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
at least today i'll have only half
a boring day, i hope.
i agree fully with what a newspaper once wrote.
that people who kai kou bi kou:
"beauty is in the eye of the beholder"
are usually ugly.
its like their mantra.
yup.
today i'm gonna talk about mantras.
in the form of what people keep
telling themselves.
sort of what they live by.
the one which gets me uber pissed is this:
i'm imperfect....yaddayadda kind of whiner.
these type of people are rampant on the net.
they make their lives sound so pitiful.
like the whole world has wronged them.
gosh.
i mean, YES, people are imperfect.
we say or do things which we shouldn't.
we sin badly.
BUT:
its an entirely different thing to use
it as an excuse for all your shortcomings.
so why don't we all go around stealing,
murdering, doing all kinds of evil
and when we get caught we'll say:
i'm sorry but its not my fault.
i'm imperfect.
stupid right?
whether you're imperfect or not you'll
still get thrown behind bars.
YES, our imperfections cause us to do wrong
at times.
but we can't give our imperfections free rein.
we do have a thing called conscience.
and usually it tugs at our heartstrings just
before we do something bad.
so what we have to do is to be more
sensitive to our conscience,
and not ignore it.
e.g before stealing something,
you go: should i do this?
what if i get caught?
that's your conscience.
listen to it.
i have always believed that YES,
people do have flaws..but their strengths
make up for them.
do yourself a favour.
never never live by that mantra please.
ANTM is showing.
gotta run!
btw i woke up to a funny message from kat
guessing who i was crushing on.
hopelessly inaccurate!
but i finally spilled to her.
and i know its in good hands!!
cya soon!
Clara.
| Your Birthdate: November 14 |
You work well with others. That is, you're good at getting them to do work for you.
It's true that you get by on your charm. But so what? You make people happy!
You're dynamic, clever, and funny. And people like to have you around.
But you're so restless, they better not expect you to stay around for long.
Your strength: Your superstar charisma
Your weakness: Commitment means nothing to you
Your power color: Fuchsia
Your power symbol: Diamond
Your power month: May |
2:52 PM
Monday, January 08, 2007
haha.
effing learn how to spell your interests!!
right.
woke up at 12 15pm.
which is kind of like a record.
and by record i mean earliest, not latest.
blogging so soon but cos so
many people tagged..
i know that my prev. post
has been read and now i can move on.
right.
only in november did i start
having an allowance.
and i tell you, its super shiok.
because in the past i used to take $$
directly from my dad's wallet,
and of course i only took it when i needed it.
which was very rare, cos i hardly ever go out.
and back then, i didn't have any savings..
wouldn't you feel bad to take $$ from your dad
and save it??
that's not really savings right?
so..with this allowance, $$ just keeps coming in!
finally i can start saving for the future.
my sis also started having an allowance.
but for her it was a loss..
because she used to take $20 or so a day!
yesterday was an uber BORING day.
the morning was ok.
i went to church with my sis,
came back myself cos she had bible study.
the journey home took 1 hr +.
zz.and for the rest of the day i had absolutely nothing
to do.
so i blogged.
then at night i got my brother to teach me
how to play counterstrike.
for only a while, cos it was a disaster!
i hate how jerkish the screen gets when
the character moves around,
so i usually camp.
and when the enemy comes,
the stupid cursor is so small that i take a while
trying to find it.
and by the time i find it i'm already dead.
so..moving on to game no 2.
dug out need for speed hot pursuit.
that was much better..
i suck as a police officer.
laying spikes and roadblocks...
but yet failing to catch the culprits.
and worse of all the police car is so slow
compared to the culprits..
since like last year i promised myself
that the first car i drive will be a sports car.
one of my traits is that i'm a very patient person.
i wait for the best.
anyways..if i buy some other car first, i'll be wasting money.
cos the resale value is always lower.
last night i couldn't get to sleep again!!
its frustrating.
i think that my whole schedule is
upside down thanks to the hols..
cos i watch tv..shows like Dr 90210
till 2 am..
so when i try to sleep at 1++, i usually
can't.
my best cure for insomnia is walking around my house.
and its quite scary, even though my house
isn't big.
cos the trees cast weird shadows on the walls.
that indeed look like hands trying to grab your own
shadow.
gosh. that's so pri. sch essay.
and then i usually open the window a little.
then cold cold wind seeps in.
and i stare at the sky for a while,
think until i get tired, then crawl back to bed.
not literally.
oh and last night i had a super real dream
that i got plastic surgery.
it was a very entertaining dream.
meaningless post.
but i'm bored again.
working this friday, helping
out at my prev. church this thursday.
girls out loud is tonight!
do catch it!
oh and i wanna go to pc bunk..
anyone interested?
cos i'm sure as hell not going alone!
its ah-beng-ah-lian galore there!
clara.
12:57 PM
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Ok wow.
i took like 1/2 hr to load all the photos.
and worst of all the photos have to be
loaded like from the last to the first so
i have to plan my entry beforehand.
tiring.
i've been blogging a lot eh?
be grateful, haha.
whenever my friends ask me about
one of my prev. posts i'm always so blur.
why?..cos i blog too much, firstly.
secondly, i empty my thoughts here.
its like draining my brain.
anyways, yesterday=class bbq.
4 I '06 tms.
i reached later than most ppl,
no one really knew why.
actually its cos i don't want to
go anywhere near the sun,
where my fairness will be in mortal danger.
hehe.
its so easy to become tan
but sooo hard to get fair.
in fact i didn't swim in 2006 at ALL..
record huh??
and the swimming pool is just at my doorstep.
ok nuff girls rant.
we booked pit 55.
it was kind of deep in.
and very muddy.
ate a little, mostly fed the cat.
I played TT with
JW,MY,E.
i suck at it.
i can have 3 2s and still lose.
incredible.
i hardly ever strategise.
look!
i know people always advise against it,
but I LIKE TO LOOK UP TREES AT NIGHT!
anyways. it was pitch dark.
tried my luck, put the flash on
and..i get something that looks like
an oil painting.
i hope you don't see anything scary in the picture.
muahaha.
took this pic much earlier.
used the horizon as my guide
so that the pic would be straight.
its still crooked.what the heck.
i miss the beach!!
actually i only miss the quiet ones.
i find sentosa's beaches too crowded
for my liking.
more for people-spotting,
not sight-seeing.
and OH. i love this pic.
peculiar angle.lopsided world.
i do like it when dark clouds mingle
with light ones.
cos light shines brighter in darkness.
after we'd run out of things to do..
yewf started crapping.
and to be honest, i enjoyed it so much.
and gosh..how can some guys just
judge a girl by her...
never mind. ;)
i want to hire yewf as my personal entertainer.
oh mental note:
h.h is a news broadcaster.
i was dying of embarrassment.
oh man!!
clara's guide on tackling crushes.
1) Don't tell anyone. (haha)
but seriously ah..how.
i'm not a gutsy person
and just like every normal human,
i dread rejection too.
ouch.
btw do you know that i pick
my crushes veryvery carefullyy.
to the point that even now i still
have fond feelings for previous
crushes as long as 5, 6 years back.
gasp.
i can't picture myself putting my
affection for ____ on display.
like h.h and her idol. -_-
don't name names anymore...
just use _____.
=D ok??
because the net is a small place.
help lah people.
oi.
and by help i don't mean by
telling ____.
pls.
that's the last thing i want.
its insincere anyway,
to pass messages.
oh and the 2nd worst thing is to tell
other people about it.
=(
that's bad.
i've been giving you people
some help getting through life ( i hope! )
help me back now!
back to the pics.
on one of my insomnia-ridden nights,
i snapped this pic.
quite risky.
i had to hold the cam
out of my window and tilt it
here and there.
long overdue pics.
010107.
relative gathering at my place.
my cousin found a toad in the field.
i think it likes his hand.
believe it or not,
i held it for 1/2 hour.
cold yes, but not slimy.
My neighbour took his rabbit out for
a stroll.
isn't it a darling??
i hugged it today.
zoomed all the way.
this kite was a minute dot in the sky.
don't you think that a kite is
a very symbolic thing?
just for the record,
i'm HOT, not a scumbag!!
gosh.
no hard feelings.
we can still be friends.
sigh.
i've been sighing a lot lately.
put an end to my misery.
advise in the cbox, ty.!
clara.
xoxoxo
4:21 PM
Friday, January 05, 2007
hmph.
why wasn't this song in the local edition of the cd??
anyways...
beautiful song.
Evanescence-
The last song i'm wasting on you.
(i love the title.don't you?)
Sparkling grey
Through my own veins
Any more than a whisper
Any sudden movement of my heart
And I know, I know I'll have to watch them pass away
Just get through this day
Give up your way, you could be anything,
Give up my way, and lose myself, not today
That's too much guilt to pay
Sickened in the sun
You dare tell me you love me
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way
You're just so pretty in your pain
Give up my way, and I could be anything
I'll make my own way
Without your senseless hate....hate...hate.....hate
So run, run, run
And hate me, if it feels good
I can't hear your screams anymore
You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buying baby
Demanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I found my way out
And you'll never hurt me again
there you go.
and its hard to find this song anywhere.
so listen to it on youtube, my new fav webby.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hym3DPiz9c0
btw i plucked my eyebrows today.
and whilst enduring the pain i remembered
how one journalist so aptly described
the experience.
he said:
imagine taking a peaceful stroll on the beach,
watching the sunset and hearing the birds sing.
when all of a sudden a swarm of wasps attack you.
how true.
cos the chair is really comfy and all,
but when the plucking begins...OW.
OWOWOW.
clara.
5:39 PM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
hola!
dreadfully rainy day today.
went for a pedicure 2 days back,
now my toenails are a neon strawberry pink.
i've called my mum's friend.
the next time i work will be next friday,
10-10.
12 hours!!
i think i'm gonna fall asleep halfway.
i think xiaxue's latest post is excellent.
i'll leave you to find out why.
;)
i have just realised that i set crazy standards
for myself.
in almost all aspects of my life.
like looks, height(but tt's not really in my control),
dressing,even singing.
take for instance,
i aspire to sing like amy lee
from evanescence.
but anyone who listens to evanescence
knows that she has a crazy voice range,
from the lowest to soprano.
there is, obviously,
a good and bad side to setting
high standards for oneself.
most people would look at the bad:
"But if you never achieve it, wouldn't you
be so disappointed with yourself??"
Yes.
i constantly am disappointed with myself.
but because i set high standards for myself,
i tell myself that just as long as i'm close to
my goal i'm already a success.
and most importantly, i do not condemnn
myself. because my life isn't ending the next second.
there is always room for improvement.
i don't dwell on it.i move on.
but dissatisfaction brings about motivation
to improve oneself, doesn't it??
that's why i'm my biggest critic.
some people may find it dumb
to be so overtly critical of themselves.
of course, there is a need for satisfaction!
sometimes when i see improvement
in aspects of my life i get satisfied.
i give myself a little rein, let loose for a while,
and feel contented.
but soon i'll be back on track again,
because i naturally get dissatisfied again,
NOT because i force myself to do so.
like when i'm not disciplined and skip
my crunches at night,
(yes i do at least 50)
i will automatically start doing it.
i don't have to force myself.
yep.
i daren't set low standards for myself,
lest i get complacent and remain there
with no improvements whatsoever.
besides, i've always lived by this saying
that my pri sch teacher told me:
Aim for the sky, fall on the tree.
Aim for the tree, fall to the ground.
when i tell people my aspirations, etc
sometimes they scorn me.
i'm used to it by now, because i ain't
a low-aimer.
but anyway, people who don't conform
to the stereotypical society always
get criticised anyway.
but i think we should all dare to dream.
one life.
ONE.
on earth.
sometimes i think its a blessing
to be born in this sunny lil island.
cos its much easier to shine here.
lesser competition in terms of people,
don't you think so?
hmm.
food for thought , people!!
clara.
xoxoxo
p.s: don't complain about our country any more!
pps: why can't i bring myself to do it??
open a window, type it and press the enter key.and wait.
shh.
7:10 PM
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
so its back to school for the jc/mi people.
mi is always in a category of its own ,huh?
nothing much happening right now
in my life. but a few nights ago
i watched this reality show on channel V
called Parental Control.
Basically, on that episode,
some 21 yr old guy was dating a girl
called rebecca.
but his parents don't like rebecca cos she's
supposedly 'needy'.
she's studying and sometimes needs the guy
to pay her bills for her, which is what
makes the guys parent's unhappy.
so...
his parents audition girls to be his next
potential girlfriend.
and then the guy will have to choose between
the 3 girls. his old gf, and the 2 new ones.
the mum and dad each pick one.
the dad's date was fine.
a pale, smiley girl who is
spontaneous and nice.
for their date she takes the guy hula dancing.
nice choice by the father.
but the mum's choice was certainly
questionable.
she chose this pretty, HOT girl (Taylor)
for the son, almost as though she
wanted taylor to seduce her son
away from rebecca.
and taylor had that b*tch face.
you can just see it in girls sometimes.
so before their date,
rebecca told the guy:
NO kissing.
the guy promised.
and guess what taylor chose to do
during the date??
pole-dance.
lap-dance.
take the guy out on a picnic,
put honey on her lips and get
the guy to kiss her.
gawd.
at this point i realised how cruel the show
was. throughout all these dates rebecca
and the guy's parents are watching them
through the TV.
yes, they know they are being filmed.
and rebecca cried when she saw
the guy kissing taylor.
nasty much??
this made me very mad indeed.
at the guy, firstly.
how could he??
giving in to his whimsical carnal needs
just like that, succumbing to temptation.
i can't blame rebecca for tearing.
i mean, is it fun to watch your bf
kissing another girl?
damn him.
and secondly, i got mad at the guy's mum
for picking taylor, knowing fully that
the attraction between them would be
sexual.
hello??
STD??
one important lesson in life that
every parent should impart to their child
is that love and sex are 2 different things.
damn her!!
she was so b*tchy during the entire show,
hurling sarcastic remarks at rebecca.
as a grown up, shouldn't she be more sensitive??
and the final result:
the guy chose taylor.
rebecca stormed out of the house.
can anyone blame her??
how can one just end a relationship
like that?
that guy is certainly an unfeeling creature.
talking about this is maddening.
bye.
9:00 PM
